Always Say A Prayer -ASAP-

2012-01-04T05:05:00.000-08:00

Today..nak ckp omputih balik...dah lame sgt tak ckp omputih..so back to english...hehe...

People can say many things,I know I'm a person who seems to have a lot of problems and create a lot of emotion . But I can't change my bad attitude,guess it's going to stuck with me forever. I thought I can change but I can't. I'm almost 30 and yet i'm still feel lost with my life.Where is my destination and how did my life end ?This question sometimes stuck in my head and I dun have any explanation.

It's new year and what i need the most is a new me. Where is my new me?I want to change ..but I can't promise i'll change. I pray to Him that I will change and yet can I change?I dun change much for the past years and I dun have any hope for changes.So I just stick with what I can be.

Today ,I just talk to a person who I adore much and respected highly. I dun expect that I can speak so much and now I felt numb. I feel stupid and words can't describe what I really felt.I think,it's time for me to avoid negative spiritual energy and focus on positivity. Hope he sees a positive side of me. Cause I can't pretend to be good.Today i got a better word,rather than says I am not good,I will change to I'm still in a learning process.And this is my starting point. I will stick to my plan.And I will move from here.Ready Goal!Here I GO!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

2012-01-02T02:40:00.000-08:00

Selamat tahun baru.Lagi seminggu dah nak present final untuk master tapi rase mcm tade semangat jer since budak ucuk nak terbang balik gi kerje. Pejam celik..pejam celik ..dah masuk taun 2012...Kejap jer...kan?

Ape yg aku azam tahun awal tahun 2011-Rase kat entry 10 jan 2011 ade aku gepost..Sile bace kembali...dan tayah susah2 pi jenguk ..aku dh copy paste balikla..ape aku berazam time tu.

-Nak Beli gitar (dan belajar sendiri)
-Nak tambah illustrasi aku..skang ada dalam 27 jer illustrasi aku..nak menambah kepada at least 2 kali ganda...so aku leh simpan dlm frame byk2..buat koleksi peribadi.
-Aku nak start uat freelance semula(tapi kali ni yg simple2 ja )
-Sambung master dlm bidang visual com kat uitm..
-Buat Showcase yg paling best utk Final Project student ku..next semester....
-Beli umah (kalau ade rezki)
-Cuba masuk..mengajar kat IPTA...(dok gila saiko apply tak henti2...mungkin sbb tade master agi)

Berikut ape yg berlaku kepade diri ku tahun 2011...(mahu tulis yg baik2 ajaa)

-Dapat bayar kete sepenuhnyer...
-Dapat lesen memandu penuh
-Dapat beli umah yey!walaupon umah 2nd hand(tapi tahun 2012 ni baru nak duduk kowt)
-Dapat sambung master(walaupon rase mcm tak suke jer assignment yg diberikan)
-Dapat kawan baru..yang baik!Harim..dan lain2
-Rakan yg baik dpt kerja baru lalu berhenti dr tempat kerja..huhu..
-Dapat printer A3..
-Dapat beli camera DSLR dgn macro Lens
-Taun 2011 dpt handphone nokia C2 baru..
-Dapat gi camping first time..kat kerachut hasil kerjasama pensyarah UITM(terus jatuh cinta dan jadik gila nak gi hiking dan camping lagi)
-3 kali bertuka gaya rambut hohoho
-Ade 4 jenis pet(kucing,terraphin,arnab dan hamster)-Yang masih kekal arnab dan hamster

Yang telah tercapai hanya ade 2 jer iaitu..sambung master dan beli umah tapi yg tercapai tu kire besola tu kan kan?Gitar tu bleyla sambung azam utk 2012 ni plak.Illustration mmg tak tambah la sebab dok sibuk jer belaja...tade masela plak.

So dengan ini Azam taun ni plak...nak berazam ape yer..

-Beli gitar dan belajar main gitar(sebab tahun lepas dh berazam so nak dpt jugak tahun ni )
-Still nak compile illustration jadikkan buku kalau takleh nak tambah pon hehehe (Just hobby)
-Nak kerje baru yg best dan masih dlm education gak sebab aku mmg suke ngajar(almaklumla gaji ciput sampai mati susah jugek kan?)
- Nak try uat bagus utk semester ke-2 master sebab semester 1 dah mcm ampeh..(kerje teruk....belajar master pon mcm ampeh)-Skang ni tunggu redah nak kasik lepas jerr...janji lepas udah lerr..
-Nak bercuti kat Bandung Indonesia bersama ucuk dan kemana aja sepanjang tahun 2012(sebab tak pernah honeymoon atau bercuti berdua selepas kahwin)
-Dah dpt umah baru..bolehla mula hidup baru yg lebih sempurna yey!(Blaja memasakla nampaknyer)

Setakat ni jerla kowt impian taun baru....harap akan jadik lebih best mcm tahun 2011!dapat baby ker...kekekekeke...

2011-12-13T04:11:00.001-08:00

Lame dah tak mengapdet blog..., Bile bace balik entry lepas,tatau ape la yg aku dok ngarut2,tade fullstop plak tu,tentu pening membace hoho. Tape pas ni aku buatla fulltop, supaye tak pening2 bace.

Disebab kan dan oleh kerana tidak mengapdet atau menconteng-conteng di blog ni, byk mende lah nak aku cerita.

Permulaan adalah pasai UMAH!...hiphip hurray...aku dh beli umah,sebelum ni mcm2 halangan,tapi alhamdulillah,dah dpt umah cuna tunggu loan realease. Umah tu dekat bandar sungai long,mmg dekat dgn UTAR. Cuma jauh la ngan tempat kerja,boleh jadik gila kalau ari2 ulang alik,tapi ape beza ngan skang kan?ulang alik dr subangjaya ke KL, saiko jugek rasenyer. Umah ni aku dpt beli disebabkan utang kete dh dibayar. Syukur beban utang kete tayahla nak pening2. Walau begitu ,skang mmg saket giler sebab duit dalam bank dah tade ape2. Tapi disebabkan dah bese duit kering time dulu2,meggie mee la jawabnyer ari2 .

Citer Kedua,aku dah sambung master,dok tgh sambung,tapi mmg saiko sket citernyer. Mase aku mmg tak keruan pulak. Assignment yang kukire dlm digital,sume manual plak.. terpakse melukis-lukis saiz A0,A2. Aku mahu give up,tapi bukan sebab tak boleh buat,sebab keje tu mcm gune kudrat,seperti melukis-lukis ni,output die nak narrative illustration,bleh jer uat dlm photoshop atau illustrator. Kukira kalau uat dlm photoshop ke illus,dalam 1 jam bleh siap kan?. Ni kalau melukis saiz beso GAJAH (A0 plak tu),paling teruk 2 ari ler amik mase,paling hebat 3 -5 jam tanpa henti. Tak ke membazir kudrat,tenage dan mase?. Aku tak salahkan sape2,cume sedih,skill yg selame ni aku banggekan dan hingat boleh dibanggekan bile amik master ni ,disia-siakan plak...Apelah nasib aku..Time blaja MMU,hebat sgt plak expectation sampai jadik gila..Di uitm,bende senang,mase plak tade dan nak buat bende tu cara zaman batu.Mmglah..asas zaman batu tu perlu ade,tapi kalau dh ade teknologi seperti perisian yg canggih2,ape salahnyer menggunekan teknologi sedia ade,lagipon dah name master in visual com and new media?ape yg new?alkisahnyer,aku tetap respek pensyarah di uitm,seme baik2 belake...cume aku tak suke ASSIGNMENT yg mcm ini...stress dowhhhh!Untuk pengetahuan kalian,aku tgh struggle dok uat CUBE atau erti kate lain arca art movement utk kelas design issue. Nanti akan dtg aku postla gamba lukisan "HEBAT" aku dan keje "HEBAT" aku...

Citer Ketiga...aku dah jadik lecturer yang ampeh semenjak aku sambung master ni. Mmg aku touch and go jerla...walau begitu,aku akan cube betulkan jadual aku supaya boleh jadik seimbang seperti mesin penimbang . Skang,aku rase tertekan ,sbb tak dpt nak bahagi mase dgn sempurna. Aku bertuah ade boss yg baik mcm kak Su, kalau tak dh lame aku kene saiko. Ini pon dekan aku dh komplen2 pasai susah nak jumpe aku. Itu pon sbb die nak wesite FAD die tu siap. Aku cume cube nak puaskan ati die,tapi kalau die tak puas ati,ape boleh aku buat. Lagipon website FAD tu mcm berjalan dgn lancar.Lagipon itu kelas aku,projek utk student aku.Dah kire baik aku soh derang buat FAD web tu. Nape perlu die masuk campur?Ahh....malas nak pk.yang terkini,harus siapkan exam bank sekilat mungkin. Doakanlah Allah mempermudahkan urusan aku.

Citer Ke Empat, member kesayangan aku yang paling rapat dan byk tolong aku azlyn,dah benti dr KLMU,termasuk member paling ceria Siti jugak benti. Bagus bagi derang,dpt rezeki yang murah ,cume aku sedih aa...kan,org nak bergossip-gossip liar dan cr makan bersame-same dh tade. Tapi skang dh ade penganti yakni harim dan mimi. Itu pon aku tataula lame mane derang nak bertahan kat KLMU ni. Derang dah ade master,dan bagus2 semenyer. Kejap jer dpt keje kalau dah ade experience setaun kat KLMU ni. Aku skang dh pindah dr PH ke blok B,mmg duduk dlm bilik,selesa byk dr di PH. Cuma aku la yg jarang2 ada kat opis tu,harap aku dpt ubah sikap ampeh aku sem ni(bukan nak jd ampeh tp memula sambung master,susah nak sesuaikan diri).Skang sebelah aku ,lecturer baru yg kucerite awal td,harim nama dia,mmg kelakar dan satu otak jugekla ngan aku. Yang paling best,die suke tgk promotion kat internet. Senangla nak dpt info ape2,tayah susah2 nak picit keyboard,gune sore jer,dah dpt info. Teringat aku kat member baik time MMU dulu. Sowang lagi lecturer Mimi,aku tak rapat lagi ngan mimi,mungkin pasni kite seme akan merapat diri . Aku tak sabar2 nak masuk opis ari Khamis dan stayback lame kat opis tunggu student uat keje 3D derang. harap aku dpt bahagikan mase keje dan mase belajar sebab aku ni suke sgt mengajar tak hingat dunia.

Citer ke lima...Byk mende aku nak citer ..aku rase ..citer kelima ni nak stop dulula..Perut dah lapa plak. Aku ade jugek check tag board,ramai yg komen,kate menarik isi kandungan blog ni. Aku pon pelik jugek sebab tade ape la yg aku tulis ,seme marang merapu ajer. Walau bagaimana pon,kalau pujian mereka ikhlas,aku sgt terharu,ade jugek org nak bace blog aku ni. Aku rase tade sapela yg membace blog ni,tapi kalau ade,at least aku takdela bercakap dgn laptop aku ni. Kalau aku kenal org2 itu,dah lama aku banje karaoke ke...ajak makan2 ke...tgk wayang ke...best jugek kan kan?Tapi apekan daye.... K...aku rase nak stop dulu conteng2 dlm blog ni ....esok malam aku sambung lagi,esok aku ade kelas master dan submission master. nak menyambungla uat bende arca2,gunting2,gam2...rase mcm dlm kelas buat barangan kerusi meja . Ape2 pon dun worry,sok aku postlah gamba KEJE "HEBAT" aku...hohoho

2011-06-06T07:43:00.001-07:00

Hari ni cam bese..jer....cume k faza banjer mkn dinner...dpt wish tp tak seberape...so sebelum tu..marey kire berape org wish..kiteee....family..Azlan,mama,maksu,paksu , faiz,k lynn,k faza,k emmy,cia,......member..Su,Kak Zura,Lynn,Eha,Naren,Uteay,Luke,Agung....(Naren.uteay family frens..Agung kwn cia..tk penh jumpe ponn)...Student..sowang jer wish..Wani..So jumlah keseluruhan...18 org jer...it shows...birthday dates is not that important to remember...betul la..kadang sibuk..so mane ade mase nk ingat happy bday to me...lgpon aku manee ade member sgtt...hikhik...

Hantu Plastik

2011-05-02T01:11:00.000-07:00

Cepat jer mase berlalu...keje opis tk siap agi...malasnyerr..ade agi 5 set kertas soklan kene buat...sebab kene reject.....Hopefully application master ni berjalan lancar...Pagi tadi ade satu citer lawakk...kene tempias kaka utay la ni. Sebelum ni...kaka ade citer..mase die tido kat umah kiterang di tepen..die ade nmpk lembaga putih kat tepi almari...Mmg umah tepen tu ade mende tp die tk kaco pon...time kekecik dulu kami2 ni penahla nmpk lembaga putih tp tade muke..pun...Kak faza yg byk tgk mende...aku tadela slalu sgt...,mase kekecik jer...umo dlm 7 taun gitu...Al kisahnye...dah kaka utay pon ternmpk...so..ape lagi..semalam...aku ngan dua org adik aku..cia ngan awyn tido bilik ..sebelah bilik yg kaka utay nmpk lembaga tu...so..kiterang time tido tk pk aa ape2..so tidola...pagi2 dlm kul 5 gitu..aku termangun sbb jam loceng..munyi tetibe...pastu aku nmpk ade lembaga putih tgh sujud cam org sembahyang...so aku pon suluhla.ngan enset..mmg sah nmpk kain sembahyang..suluh 2 ...dan 3 kali..mmg betul mmg telekung kain sembahyang...org..tp org tu tk bergerak pon...so aku pon ngan selamber...panggil cia yg dok kat sebelah aku....."cia..hang nmpk tk tu.."..cia pon katee.."mane adee tak nmpk ponnn"....Cia dok pandang tempatlain..so..aku pon ckpla.."takkan aku sowang ja nampak...cube hang tgk tuuuuuuuuuuuu...tuuuuu."..aku tunjuk kat bawah...Apa lagi...cia pon..terkejut tutup ngan kain selimut.CIa plak panggey si awyn..."oii hang tgk tuu apa menda"..awyn pon konfius...kata "manaaa?"...ngan slamber..cia...dengan muke tutup...dia pi tunjuk ngan tgnnn.."tuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!"..apa lagi..sambil2..tu...kiterang gelak besoo bukannyer takot.....yang lawak..kiterang leh gelak giler2...cia sempat kate agii "Aaaaa..dia tgh sembahnyangg aaaa tuuuuuuuu.."hahahahahha..mmg lawakla...rase satu umah leh dgr..giler kuat kiterang gelakkk..pastu soh awyn bukak pintu..dia kate..tammo..apa tuu..dia kata...pas pintu dah tolak..uper2 nyer plastikk..hahahahahaha..mmg lawak..plastik tu..mmg mcm org tgh sujud..yang pelik..camne aku leh suluh..nmpk telekung sembahyang...mmg lawakk siaa...kiterang lagi laa gilakk tak hingatt punyaaa.....

2011-04-16T05:47:00.000-07:00

Hye..

kembali lagi..lan dah pon selamat terbang ke offshore....loan kiterang tak approved sebab lan keje contract dan aku gaji kecik....tapelah tade rezki...so skang dok carilah tempat yang ok...so kene budget dalam 160 000 ja...lan soh jgn tunggu dia...tapi aku takot nak gi sowang2...tapelah dah tade rezki kan...berangan..berangan jugak....tapi...dah tak boleh nak buat camne...skang aku...tgh bosan ni...nak gi check tmpt tapi tade org nak teman plak.......Skang raja lawak tgh berkumandang....so utk layan stress....jom layan raja lawak..melawakkan diri...pasni nak karaoke...kehkeh...memandangkan kak faza ngan abg fon gi bercuti..umah tade org...so sebelum masuk ke kandang...better menggunakan masa yang ada sepenuhnyaaaaaaaaaa....hip hip hurrayy!!!...

2011-02-19T02:58:00.000-08:00

Askum..

Hehehe..Lan udah pulang ke mesia....die gi balk bulan 4...Kami dah jumpe tempat yang sesuai...ade kekurangan..tp byk kelebihan..cume tgh tunggu loan approve jer...Kawasan tu strategik,dekat ngan KL Central,Midvalley,Bukit Bintang. Yang menarik ..kiterang dpt..umah tingkat 4(Lan lahir bulan 4) dan umah no. 6(aku lahir bulan 6).Kebetulan plak.Harge umah tu agak murah utk ukuran 1300sf dengan location yang strategik gitu..dlm 215K.

Nanti bile lan balik kali kedua...kami akan pindah situ.Skang aku tgh berangan nak hias tmpt tu aa. Leh ajak kawan2 dtg makan2.Alhamdulillah rezeki kiterang murah.Sgt bersyukur...Skang lan tgh membute..tido..tadi sempat main lawan tgn...hohoho...sape menang die banje...spt bese lan kene tipu sbb aku ckp sakit so die takdela melawan sgt...akhirnyaaa diaa banjee!!kehkehkeh.

Tahun ni aku rasa semangat sket..sebab dah nampak dah sket future...sket ja la...kehkeh...Dalam cuti2 ni..aku dh buat plan nak gi bercuti besama keluarga...disebabkan family lan dah tak terlibat so...family aku jerla yang aku leh kuar bawak jalan2 bersama-sama...mesti best!lokasi yang menjadi tumpuan Melaka...dan agi satu Cameron...Nak sgt bawak parent gi jalan2 sana..tido skali...Jadual lan 6/4 ..die akan terbangla...mesti sedey aaa time tu...

...Oh hamster ku?yeah derang tu tak mati2 pon..bahagia lagi ha...tan tin tun mmg hamster yg sgt tahan lasak...aku 3 minggu skali baru tuka bedding derang....tape..harap derang masih idop time aku nak pindah kang..dptla setup umah yang hebat utk drang...

Mary J. Blige - Be Without You

2011-01-26T06:10:00.000-08:00

Syok plak lagu ni..hahaha...nanti bley aa try karaoke...

2011-01-18T04:34:00.000-08:00

Hehe..pas ni aku dah malas nak bercakap omputih..tade feeling lah...tuka bahse lah plak...baru terase back to the basis...okla...Time dulu2....time blaja dulu2..aku slalu pk..aku ngan lan cinta kontrak..tup2..last2 kawen gakk ngan die...dptla laki ensem..walaupon aku tk ensem..

Azam aku kali ni utk tahun 2011..nak happykan diri jer..tanak dh emo2..ni...buhsan..melayan perasaan..gundah gulana...nmpk cam org tade arah tuju ja..nama ja lectura...hukhuk..Azam taun baru aku..2011..sempena umoq aku ni dh meningkat 2 puloh sembilan...akhir 2 series aku...la..Aku nak..:

-Beli gitar (dan belajar sendiri)
-Nak tambah illustrasi aku..skang ada dalam 27 jer illustrasi aku..nak menambah kepada at least 2 kali ganda...so aku leh simpan dlm frame byk2..buat koleksi peribadi.
-Aku nak start uat freelance semula(tapi kali ni yg simple2 ja )
-Sambung master dlm bidang visual com kat uitm..
-Buat Showcase yg paling best utk Final Project student ku..next semester....
-Beli umah (kalau ade rezki)
-Cuba masuk..mengajar kat IPTA...(dok gila saiko apply tak henti2...mungkin sbb tade master agi)

K..aku cuba dptkan takat ni dulu...(mungkin beli umah tu....akhir2 taun la kot..hoh)

Selain dr catitan di atas...aku nak...happy kan budak ucuk...dan cuba buat life aku ceriaa...Sian dia..sebab..diala..aku agak senang skang..happy..tayah pk pasal duit..bile die balik..ade la...mase yg lame dgn die...sebenaqnya sonok jugak cemni..mungkin yg buat aku saiko..menumpang umah kakak..kalau..umah sendiri..mesti best gila..laahh..

Tapi..sebab kakak ku jugak..aku leh simpan duit...kalau tak...tade maknenyer nak ade simpanan..

K majulah bahasa mesiaa..dh lame sgt dok mengomputihkan diriku dlm blog ni..tuka pesyen plak la..nih..haitt..akhir kate..selamat bersemangat!

The Corrs - Breathless

2011-01-10T06:06:00.000-08:00

Walaupon...kite tensen...tk bermakne kite tak syg ucuk..kite....sebab stress kene tinggal..maknenyer sayangla tu....kan?melepaskan geram jer....die baik....mmg husband yg baikla....

Cume kite tak dpt ape yg kite nak sejak kecik...jadik...benggong sket...tp..sebenarnyer ape yg kite ade...dah lebih dr bahagia....Leave me breathless....kite manusia....seme mende tkkan sempurna utk kite..dan kite takkan puas ati sampai mati...

I'm like a bird :Nelly...singging by...me..

2011-01-10T04:11:00.000-08:00

Hoho...kelmarin lan kate..kite..bodohh.....tak suke blaja..tak pandai..tk suke 3D..ingat balik time dulu2...die penah kate kite..buruk...pemalas..kurus..dan itam...tak sangke die ade pemikiran begitu...bile tanye sayang ke tak...die kate die tersayang kat kite...ter aje...kirenyer tak sangke la...buat kite teringat die kate kite ni spare part jer...yelah...sape nak org yg itam..kering cam kite ni...kalau kene tinggalpon..sape yg nak kan?tade org nakk ponn....mmg betul ape die ckp..sebenarnyer...cume nak terime kenyataan tu mmg teruk sket...almaklumla..sejak kecikkan kene org kate kite ni itam..tak lawa....tambah..dulu..penah jugek...gi blind date....ade yg lari...ade yg dah tak contact dah pastu...ade...jugek yg terus terang kate suke kat kawan kite....derang tak suke india...sebab muke dan kulit kite kan cam india...burukk..bagi derangla..dan akhirnyer kite kawen jugak..tapi bukan husband yg reject...parent die lak yg reject...(sebab husband dah kene angau cinta...)

lan ni pon same jugak cam derang...tu..cume bezanyer die pendiam...dulu die suke teh....penah juger suke elis...(2-2 ni putih melepakk)tapi kene reject dgn derang sbb die pervert time tu...dan cam pelik sket....tp die ensem kalo pndai dress up...die boleh dpt perempuan cun...skang sebab die dh kaye...ade duit....dan rupe ade..cume kene pandai tackle jer...tapi skang dh byk berubah...pandai dh bergaul sket...

Sian kat lan ni...sebenarnyer...die ter jatuh cinta ngan kite....org kate baru2 kawen ni..mmg byk dugaan....yer terlalu byk dugaan....ade yg memule bahagia pastu teruk.....dan...boleh ke...tak bahagia then bahagia??Tapela...harap taun ni...ade rumah...leh ngandung....dah tak kisah dah...ngandung sowang..biarlah...ape nak jadik..yg penting anak....kalau dh ade anak..tayah dah pk pasal suami...so tadela sedey sgt.....

Kite ni rase tensen kejap jer...mmg kuat merungut tapi...nak tanak kene redah gak...kene pk positif,,,tu yg beli byk buku motivasi....lagu ni utk lan....biasela..still terperuk sowang2 lam bilik....nyanyilah...ari ni mc....kene batuk tk henti2...sinus....kes dh berat sebenarnyer...dah 10 taun ....makin teruk lak....tunggu lah...mase nak gi jumpe pakar ..la..kang...wisau gak..sebab tkleh tahan dh kadang2...

2011-01-06T03:18:00.000-08:00

My roadtax is here at last...haha..i'm a bit cool..but...still worried on my file...by the..like I mention in earlier post...I told them i'll called back on saturday...If not I'm going to get pissed off...

Tomorrow i had to wake up early..to invigilate the examination..I did not mark my students assignment yet and..its killing me...really...I had to do some reports...slides..and pdr...I;m not sure If it can be completed by this week.

I wanted to chat with ucuk but he is working at the moment...today...I had practise the dance step of neyo 1 in a million video clips....yeyy..It is not perfect but at least i can do the steps...Wait until we got a home and I will have plenty of space to jump and dance....cook..and so..on....hopefully..

I need to learn Lightwave now...and I hav plan for next semester for me students..

2011-01-05T01:46:00.000-08:00

I'm freaking mad right now....nobody to run to.....just to speak up my thoughts....I do make status in the FB...just to make me feel better...but my ucuk said that it is stupid to do that....looking for sympathy...I am not looking for sympathy....just to make me feel better...I need somebody to say it..out..My family?They would think I'm too sensitive....nagging..saying I am so pathetic..looking for sympathetic...evoking...and much more..I dun want them to feel that way.... I am lost...

Last Sunday I went to service my car..and guess what?Proton did not give back my savvy file..I've paid for RM600 just to get a cheap...fucking loser services??.and now they were saying that their foreman misplaced it in another customer car..so I had to wait for their call to get my file back.And one more thing...my road tax is ended on 6th January...meaning tomorrow...I called the Proton in taiping and she told me she had allready sent me my roadtax and said that it might arrived today...but I waited the whole day...no..delivery...I have paid for RM900..and luckily today I dun have to invigilate so..I took a leave...and wasted it on..waiting for the fucking road tax...ALL DAY LONG...I ONLY ATE FUCKING MAGGIE MEE!DAMN ITT!

What am I goin to do if the roadtax had not arrived tomorrow?I'm doomed.....I can't drive..to work...Its fucking crazy....shit...I'm cursing too much...FUCKKK!FUCKK!FUCKK!...Where is my husband when I needed him?oh yeah..he's not here..yeah yeah..and I'm feeling great.....Too good to be married and have a miserable fucking life...

I wanna go out...but I can't....i'm afraid that my brother in-law will get back..((I felt soo insecure).Do you know that I have a kind of phobia..with people who gets angry when I did something not right....?My father once...is really perfectionist...I can't make mistakes in front of him..I felt insecure...I am afraid of making mistakes..I have this feeling of running away from trouble...that is why i use to not pick up my phone..and felt like covering myself up...That is why I am worried too much..

Now...I am staying with my brother in law who are just like my father...and do you think I felt comfortable?I always felt sooo afraid..and sometimes I cried..all night long..during my sleep.......My father learn his lesson..he is ok now...but my phobia?Is my phobia going to dissapear?I really afraid of people....afraid of people getting mad...afraid of making mistakes..afraid that people might not get pleased on what I did? I even afraid of my students...

I wanna pleased everybody...but I ended hurting myself...I want to break free..I am here because I can't make my own decision...I felt sorry for my sister...cause...she do look as though she is ok ..to let me stay..in her home.. Do his husband ok?I hope so...

I am so sad...evryday is a sad day....I need to find somebody who can understand me...just friend..somebody for me to hang out...and talk too...I love my husband...but sadly while he is around..I'm not going to get myself attach to him..cause it will hurt me even more....cause I know he will be here in a very short while...(that is why I avoid being so loving...like any normal wife would do..)I refuse to do anything..not even cooking even though I am once a good cook..how should I deal with it?

And Now..It's 2011....2010 is really something for me...

-16 january 2010 - My so called Wedding Day...(I am married on 30th August 2009 which nobody knew..except family member..and it is unexpectedly)
-I only spent with him 5 month in a year...He is not here during his birthday..and my birthday..
-I got a Car...AHA5253...and I began to drive..which is a good start to be independent
-He applied..a credit card and a zing card for touch and go(automatically top-up)...which is good cause he will not be around..and the card would be usefull (It is usefull)
-I got 3 hamster cause I felt so alone and needed a pet and now the pet is staying Out of my room and I dun really get much to go and play with it...
-I know now that I hate Cats..I am not a cat-person
-I quit my master degree cause I felt so depressed with my life...and things become even worst when you feel so weak..(I decided when I am strong enough then I will get my master degree and 2011 will be the year)
-I have fun in Bandung 2010 without my husband...just with family..and I love it
-First time celebrating raya with my husband
-I got new laptop ,GPS....and also handphone from my husband..which is sweet
-First trip to genting with my friends and students...
-I got new friends....Xuan...Ahmed and many more...
-I began to use facebook (which I hate now cause I felt like i;m seeking attention..

There are many more which I wanted to state down but It will be a neverending list....So i am ok now...feeling better after being pissed of..waiting for the fucking Post man...oh shittt I said the F word again....oo..guess what?I'm done...so...yeah dats it..

2010-12-30T18:36:00.000-08:00

I'm here..long time haven't write anything in the blog...I hate having this kind of life...terperuk dalam bilik....I dun say I dun like my brother in law..but I can't make any more mistakes cause he tend to be out of control..Last thing when I ask my sister awyn to kunci the house and she forgot to do so.....

Acctually..we are in..just that we run in the room cause they(him and my elder sister) are back...and he tend to get mad la...masuk bilik lak tu..marah2...supposedly..he need to discuss professionally..intonation kan....jgn pakai melenting jerr..That is the only character I hate about him...suckks!But yg lain..he is okla..a good husband to my sister...

I need to get out of here as soon as posibble.I am 28 year old and I'm married...Sometimes i feel sad when you never get to have your own selection of wedding dress. I hate my wedding dress..It red and I dun feel beautiful wearing it but just for the sake of my family..Maybe I am beautiful in those dress..Despite some of my friends do say my wedding dress is not really suitable for me..It look like an indian marriage..(maybe I have an indian look hehehehe).I dream of designing my own wedding cards and paper bags...).

Anyhow...I am ok with what my parent prepare. for me..Though it is just too soon. I love my husband but until now we don;t have any time together as a couple.Mostly with my family...I am a family bond...Whenever he is back..we normally visit the family...we settle all the documents befre he fly again...very busy...doing stuff...and we don;t really have leisure time together.Movies together?no..he never go for a movie ..like a date..It never happen for us...Karaoke?no he is not just into it...it is wasting of money...it is me who do the singging....Staying at home together?watching TV together?No...for a year..no chance...we will be in a room..and later go out..Sleeping together?yeah...but it is not comfortable for us..the matress was too soft for him and he ussually sleep at the end of the matress and me?yeah I will be sleeping first. It is a custom where he will be with his laptop and me with my laptop...Most of the peple say..we are a great couple...yeah we were but our lives is not like other husband and wife.

Today..I saw FB status of my guy friends who just got married recently.And he mentioning that he is lucky to have a wife that can cook.....and then ..he do mention they are cooking together..doing things together...it sound sweet..but it never happen to me..for now...

When he is back..I normally lie to my frens that we are having a great moment together but acctually we just go out to makan...at a normal stall together..I will have an argument sometimes with him bringging me to a place I used to go...but now..I am ok with it...It should be lucky to have him..as my husband..cause he is a responsible man.....

I want to have a baby like any normal wifey..but I am afraid to go through that phase without him...without a comfortable place to stay(As long as I can move around and do whatever I want)...My life was really sad...I missed him a lot and things get much worst when I can't move around at home....I dun feel at home in the office..too much of noise..a lot of people...and when I get back from work..I can;t get free from my own space..I felt tied.......I dun feel secure going out alone..and.. I want to break free...

There will be times..I hope..when everything will be perfect for both of us...I bet my hubby too feel the same way...It is his choice to work..there..but it is money that keep us save..so be it..we hav to wait....

2010-10-17T00:14:00.000-07:00

hey...Yesterday..my ucuk laling need to fly urgently back to rijeka..for a 2 month job...leaving me..What happen before is nothing to remember...we are human being and I love him and still accept him...for what he is doing...Thinking about those good things he provide...he is very caring for me...sometimes even cook food for me..and treat me like a princess whenever he is here....It makes me feel good and forget about his flaws....he might have a little flaws..but 90% of his love is definitely shows..

Now..I want to live life to my fullest!!...today..i dun do anything..maybe wanna read some books that I bought about a year before...hahaha...I love books..but dun have time to read..

Tomorrow...work starts early at 8...and I will be back at night...830...hoho..after a month my ucuk drive me to work...now my chance to get back in line...solo...again...

Before ucuk fly...he told me that..he was happy to go..thinking that the money he will owned is going to be enough for us..to buy a home...so...I'm looking forward to it...

2010-10-09T02:51:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since I was lazy to put my finger on the keyboard to type some words on the blog...Raya is over...Got fews photo in my facebook...I said I want to quit my job previous post..but..it turn out we dun have enough saving...so I reapply back rythm and hues without i even know it...I dunno why i did apply again...I still confuse on leaving my job and go to the program since the program is not yet confirm my job..So if i fail ..then I would definitely risk my job..Well..tough decision...I did told my mother on the phone..about this and she's not really want me to quit my job now..she wants me to continue my master degree...same goes to my father..I guess...I'm feel stress out and down...I'm 28 for God sake!!where is my direction?I have no idea...

Today..I was lazy to do anything..I got the same entry test yet I felt so..out of interest.Before I put my finger on my laptop..I have some discussion with lan..I would want to call it an argument but discussion would be a decent word.I know he do collect porn stuff..before I even met him....some collection of sexy lady...bigger boobs....but..I dun give a damn shit..since during study..he do some modelling stuff ....But now..seeing all the woman....even some stranger who post photos in some social network..(even the gurls only wear some normal cloth..a look a bit sexy)..he do have the gut to collect them...It makes me wonder for awhile of his interest..Am I not that good to him?he do mention I got a beautiful body yet..he never even want to take my picture and collect..I don;t find any of my sexy photos..in his laptop..except only 1 wedding picture..How does that make you feel being a wife?Yeah...just say..it..I know it is normal for many other guys seeing some porn shit but collecting some normal sexy..gurl..photos in some social network....and even collect a webcam pictures of other woman photos....it is not something ordinary..I guess..

I know i am not a good wife...I did not cook...I did not have a gut to serve him in my sister's place..like he want me to.....I did not even go out from the room..to accompany him to watch movies with my brother in law...He is a responsible man...very nice indeed..but that shit makes me..don't want to have any interconnection with him..might as well..he fuck with the pictures he had..rather than seeing me being....naked...hahahaha...

It is good not to have readers..reading my blog..and for some reason by writing this..I felt much more better...

Endless Love by Me

2010-08-27T11:29:00.000-07:00

Hahahha...tade keje..menyanyi ah aku...endless love..lame tk apdet...Lan dah byk kali soh quit keje amik master fulltime..kali ni..die nak support 100%...nak kumpul 25 ribu...so...taun depan kenela..benti dan belajar fulltime dan score..pas abis master...leh carik keje balik...huhu..doakanlah...umo dah tua..dah ni..wisau lak nak benti..tp..untuk career tapela...Skang kul 230....sebab ko aween..yg jauh di indonesia.....aku pon postla mengapdet ah..blog ni.....tak sangke ade gak member aku sowang ni bace blog ku...terharu..

Ape2 pon...dalam setaun sebelum nak benti keje ni..aku nak up kan course multimedia aku..sebab org tak tau sgt course..tu..nak kasik happening sket...so start ngan final presentation aku..yg aku buat 25hb September..2010...harap aku berjaya...

2010-07-05T05:09:00.000-07:00

Dear mother & father in law,

I am really sorry to say that..both of you had missed the wonderfull moment of your son (the only son who Allah Blessed to be married for now as long as you may live).....

I am sorry....that..both of you had misunderstood and misjudge a family who respect each religion and will cherish you and your family if you be able to accept us...but you fail do to so..

I am sorry.....to say... that a..parent will always love their child....and hope the child will be loved since they might not be there for the rest of his.. life..and will always cherish as long as he will be in a good condition with a wonderfull life he chose to be...but..it does not apply to you..

I'm am truly sorry to say that..If I am a parent..I will let my child fall and learn from his lesson and be there for him/her and always there to comfort and be able to listen even if he/she may make mistakes in life ..because in life..a child need to fall..before he/she can walk..by himself/herself...(that;s what my parent did)..and i'm sure you won't agree by the decision both of you choose..

I am sorry for not be able to get to know both of you...for being in color and have a physical both of you rejected...

I am sorry to be born in a mixed family(Indian + Malay) which you think would damage your reputation as a malay....which I thought was insane in our religion as a muslim..

I am also sorry...for always be close with your son as long as he may live and cherish him to be part of a family that he always want to..

I am sorry for giving him hope that both of you may accept me and for being so sure that both of you are not a person he thought you were..because I know a parent will always love their child no matter what...but I was wrong..by the action both of you take..

I am also very sorry..that I give him a future description of where we might be a wonderfull family and plan to have a family gathering...that you and me can make a wonderfull dish ..to gather everybody.....to go for holidays...and cherish both of you like I cherish both of my parent..

I am very sorry to fall in love with a great person you got..a wonderfull child both of you had brought up...a good..responsible man...and..

Last but not least..I am very sorry that I don't want to thought both you bad even if you said bad things about us.....cause I know you just want the best for your son but .. trust me,Allah had given what you want for your son.........and of course you will always been Blessed..by Allah..for giving birth to him..

Hope both of you happy and I pray ..that Allah will give you the message ..Amin..

2010-06-02T07:17:00.000-07:00

2010-06-02T06:42:00.000-07:00

Hey..I'm back.....this is my new hair..I do the hair before lan back from nigeria..now he is allready went back to nigeria until August....will be missing him a lot...I bought a pair of guinea pig for me..and I thought i need to buy a pair of turtle as well...last time I bought the terrapin..both died...terray died of trapping in the water fliter since he is so active...and didae died because of lost of interest..since his fren died...I guess...

I am still working @ KLMU...maybe will be working there until..I got the reply from rythm and hues...If they dun call me back..maybe I will stay in KLMU a couple of years until my hubby got enough keep to send me to do my fulltime master course..

I'm still staying at my sister place....I dun feel like a married person..due to the situation I face..maybe lan is always not around and I dun have the chance to cook for him..or do like any normal wife would do...I have the feelings of hold myself in..even when my hubby is back from working for almost 3 weeks..

Anyway..I am happy to be married..to him...hopefully everything would be normal until we get our own home and I get a permenant job..

2010-04-26T10:56:00.001-07:00

Hey...Its been awhile since i stop writing something in this blog..back to my story...

well...I know my husband at the age of 22..It begins when a stranger just add in my YM and she dun even know it..she mentions that i'm allready in her list...we began to make frens...her name is shaz..we still contact...One day she ask me to help her with her assigment especially 3D..but I 'm not really good at the moment so I decided to msg Adi ..Adi gave me this YM ID saying that please do not mention to this person about it. So I msg this person. We began to chat and chat..he's a bit funny..kinda straight forward.

One day..he wanted to give somethinng to shaz..and shaz ask me to accompanied her..so I just follow her. I am very quiet..not like i was in the YM chattin room. I am not really into guys since all guys dun even look at me cause of my physical appearance. So i dun really have a heart to bother haha. So I just waited for shaz and he do tease me a bit. I did not know that he's looking at me (he mention to me la..skang ni..tak pasan pun..tataula betul ke tak hoho).

So I went back to cyberia. I'm staying in cyberia to accompanied my fren adieha..Life is a bit bored sometimes but i manage to make myself happy just by doing my own things like dancing..watching movies...talking to the mirror...jumping on my bed and do some rolling here and there with my teddy bears...So since at that moment I got someone to chat ..so I used the opportunity to get to know him..Most of the time we were chatting. basically what we chat sometimes is just merapu-rapu...like balas pantun and so on..Later we discuss on the religion issues..Well since I was brought up in a mixed marriage..so my view was a bit different yet open and he do interest in a few things. Afterall he is very religious(mat surau ).

I began to realise that he is a bit different,his attitude is not very normal..he just grab whatever food in front of him and ate other people meals. So I just explain to him not too. He's the youngest of his siblings... For 2 years,he is very cold. When I went out with him,he always walk in front..sometimes not even look at me behind him.We broke twice yet without saying anything..we just get back together..I just go with the flow..

I still remember..he used to tell me,he want to go to UK..and travelling..when I ask,if he will ever stick with me?he mentions that he could change because the women outside this country is daring and he just want to make me his back up for now. I was so sad..but i just accepted...not feeling anything..He also used to say that i'm skinny and not beautiful..the worst part is..durin 2 years couple,he compare me with other gurls..That night..I went to shaz room and i cried for the first time..I told shaz and she was very mad. She ask me to just dump him.

I am very sad yet angry with what he said so i decided to stay and try to make him fall for me. So i used my strategy to make him fall.I wear sexy cloths...be myself and pray hard to make him like me. Since he is a loner so I guess I win. I dun really love him but within 4 years of couple..he do help me a lot and i do bullied him just to test his love..so began to get attach with him..

He's not very romantic but what i love about him,he try to change for me.. He's a very reponsible man..

He carried computer table from alamanda to cyberjaya. He came to mines by bicycle.at night...just to make sure i'll take the bus back home to cyberjaya..since that time i'm workig as a part time promoter (normally come back at 1030 p.m everyday)..He help me financially..he's always there when I need him and I realise Allah send me a very decent man and I am very happy to meet him.

As for his parent..We broke twice is because of them..I try to avoid him but we still frens and later we stick together always..So I try to ask him about his parent..he hates his mother and i always ask him not to say bad things about his parent..I love my parent and i know how it feel for a parent to love their.son...what they did is because they want the best for him and his parent dun even know me..I am very sure they will love my family when they meet them(that is what i think at that moment since I thought his family is a well polish family with a very open mind and a universal thinker)..yet even now i dun belief that his parent is like that cause i dun even have the prove..but he is the son so perhap he knows his parent pretty well..

For the past 5 years we kept our relationship secret. I hate it but i just go with the flow believing that his parent definitely love me when we meet!So I have so much plans..planning when we get married..there will be 2 family gathering....i want to gather all of his family member together since he mention to me ..they dun really have a family photos..so all of it was just a plan..I allready prepared some recipe to cook for them...making puddings..it will be a lot of fun..yet Allah knows everything and there always a blessing in disguise..

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2010-03-14T01:57:00.000-08:00

On 16th January 2010 ,I had a wonderfull wedding ceremony..well prepared by my mama and papa...Even though I dun have the chance to choose my own dress,to have a certain ceremony which I imagine few years back but this is consider the most incredible wedding I ever had in my life..It is unexpected...It is very.. hush and rush...I was dissapointed at one point....and at the end....It is all went smoothly...I Thank Allah for what He gave me...a wonderfull family... ....I know now..I had no regret for what He Plan for me...

Looking back at what I face..It is not a pity for me to have an experience every journey..due to races..skin color..Its extraordinary experience and I like It..For the past 5 years in MMU i face so much challenge and now..It is a new beginning for Another challege..I dun think I can handle it well like I used to be..since when I found my MR right a.k.a..my husband...I am well pampered by him...he loves me so much (even though it takes for 2 years to makes him fall for me).Since before he left to Nigeria for project,he had been with me for 3 month and It is very hard for me to take the pressure..I cried the night before he left...and there goes a lot of MC..EL...and other bad reputation of me which I never been through with works and study..I regret to take my master at the early stage of this crisis and now I need to get through it(If too pressure..I need to quit and wait till everything settle)....It feel more difficult..when I dun have any home..like any normal married couple(this is because I never imagine to get married at this stage so I dun have any save)..I stayed at my sister's place which I am very glad..she and her husband allow me to...(since my husband job is travelling around the world).He will only be back on April 30 and will stay only for 4 weeks before he flew again....I understand that we have no choice since we need money to survive..we owed someone for the wedding ceremony...my ptptn loan had reach the maximum level...his parent still hunting him down for money he owe them...and It is ok...since we always have the Great Artist to depend on...

You might been wondering why .....My wedding is so hush?yeah..the reason is...his parent did not like me even though they never saw me or know me personally..Their son loves me and he dun want to let me go..so he left his family...It is a sin?I dun think so....I can't keep it secret and I dun care what people might think of me and my family..Yeah my family is very extraordinary...we mixed...we are multi rational and we dun expect people who with education to behave like those who without it..even those who without it can behave well... I dunno them so I dun want to say bad things about them.

Why on earth they dun like me?the answer is they dun even want to get to know me..They just assume things and they dun like dark skin cause they are afraid their grandchildren will born to get their mother's skin.. Is that ok for someone who pray 5 times daily to behave?I am very confused...When I met with my husband,he mention to me that he dun like his mother and pray for her death .That is before we couple..I was in shock for 1 sec, how would a 22 years old(at that moment) guy hates his mother badly.Normally we love our mother,I love my mother deeply.. I dun ask for reason but I told him,his mother loves him,every mother loves their children. If not he won't be what he was at that moment...well fed,clean shirt,a good education...My answer kept him quite...

Acctually what I like about him that he look weird,his appearance is weird and his face..he dun like to smile. People around him assume that he is such a dork and nerdy ,more worst pervert. But all of it is just an asumption..he is a very sincere person,responsible man,very kind heart and gentle.Flash back before this, He dun really know how to well behave in front of the public..He called a person who is much older with oii...The first time he came to my parent house..He just walk in without salam...and just sit in front without smile..He do what he thinks suits him and he dun really care about his appearance.My mother was really shock and call me saying my boy friends is very rude..I say ..just get to know him...and yeah of course ..they gives him a chance..Later my parent observe him and yes...they said..he is a decent man..very straight forward,even though not a romantic one. The more they get to know him...They loves him too much..Thank Allah for giving me such a wonderfull parent who dun judge people by it appearance and not assuming someone background.

It is so much I wanna write down..I will start with how we both get to know each other...Since I need to settle my teaching's file for tommorrow's work.I am exhausted..I feel very lazy to do anthing and hopefully I got sometime to tell you my story...more like a TV dramas..hahahahaha

2009-09-22T08:53:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYE~~

Well..It wasn't too late for me to say it since we still in raya mood...Today is almost 3 days of raya and time passing so fast. Raya is Ok...as ussual but more happening since my family is getting bigger...3 of my sisters is edy married..and me..yeah coming soon..

Today I met with my 3 best friends since School...they dun really change much and they mention to me I am too..hahaha...Riza is getting married on 12th December this year and..I have to come. Hopefully I will get my driving liciense....(need to try harder).Yasmin now is a Dr in Alor Staq..Shahenaz is a teacher..and Riza is an engineer..very happy for them...

Really fun hang out but there's not much time to tell our storiesss...

Till then Happy Raya...2009...and See our family pictures..everyone is getting older by dayss..hohoho

2009-08-22T03:46:00.000-07:00

First day of ramadhan..I cooked special meggie mee...wrap with eggs..and a steak burger..hehehe....I am almost 2 weeks working in KLMUC...I missed my students..I dun think they missed me much....but hey I do missed them..hope they are all good and have a great day a head..and my friends ..there aida..kak nor..cik fardil..kak zura especially....hope they are good..

Kak zura having a baby gurl!!very lucky of her have born a child right before ramadhan...hehehe mesti cute...

I allready got subjects to handle..really afraid of entering class..since I'm not sure what kind of student I will be facing....huhuhu....but ganbatte!!!for me and hopefully okla..bulan ramadhan...

I going to be engaged to Azlan b. harun on this coming 30th August 2009. He have a training and he could be busy in this coming weeks until october...he will fly to Nigeria..and we will get married when he is back from there...hehehe..at last..

My day had come.....New Chapter will be open...and there is a secret I would like to share to reader...after my wedding day~~~love and hug..~~HAPPY RAMADHAN ~~~

New Beginning```

2009-08-10T06:24:00.000-07:00

I got KLMU...meet with ali...of course he is good there since there are very strict(very good for him ,happy for him too,at least he can develop himself and hope I can develop mine)....hehehe...I get to know good people...even though I a bit nervous but...yeah first day..dun have anything to be done.....

My boss is not around so maybe that is why...Still I need to bring laptop. The class is good...and facilities for the student is ok...Need to wait for the semester to start so I can see how it goes...

Bye bye MIIM..even though I love working there just because of the staff and the environment..but to enhance career..I can't stay for long...Still I need to thank you to the management for the experience I got even though not very entertaining for me to flash back)

Hopefully..the new beginning for me..and at least I know the course that i;m goin to teach is still accredited by MQA.....I dun want to take a risk anymore and I have tried hard to make the Centre recognised by people...

Bile la nak kemas meja ku tu haihlaaa..huhu

2009-08-03T04:39:00.000-07:00

You want to drink that?hahahaha..no way...this is the reason why I dun drink carbonat drinks...erghh.....

I got good news today and also a bad day for me since some people misunderstood about something..well I dun blame them..maybe my fault..I admit..but the weird part is..I ask people to read it ...they just say...no offend..they still love the company same goes to me..even we pray for their future ...haihla...we can't blame people but ourselves ...anyway that was long time ago...better put it behind our back....Focus for the future....

Everybody got their own path to follow...and with the Help of Allah..I found mine...I know now..I'm not suitable for production but education..that is why I am not thrown to production area...Allah Knows me better(maybe i'm too thin..or maybe I won't live long if I follow my desire to go to production field)..Anyway I dun get Rythm and Hues.... I will continue to send in my appllication next time If I have the opportunity in Cyberjaya....and congratulation to Azim...for getting in and he is in India now...hihihi..proud of him...he will definitely succeed...

Still waiting for the offer letter by KLMU......(harap2 dapat..dpt jer kire confirm ler hihi)stress keje pun tak kisahla...

2009-07-24T04:32:00.000-07:00

Hahaha...Interview is always good for me but I dunno If i got KLMU this time...Well..I rush from office to go for the interview...And when I arrive,a cute gurl name azma aida also applying for the same position sat beside me. She just recently back from melborne study Creative Multimedia. I am impress with her and I hope that we both got the Job. She is very good in 2D animation and she also had an experience in the industry.

We sat down together and while waiting my stomach rumbling ( Tak makan sejak pagi sebab gerun sgt ). I know I am not that good but I need to try the best of me for them to hire me hahaha..Ready to learn new things. At first I dun want to bring my laptops but it turn out that I just brought it(God Will I guess). Then before I go,Kak zura mention to me it would be a good thing for me if I can bring my laptop and show my work.I never fail my interview but since I am in MIIM and i never updated my portfolios..I fail several interview with different reason and I learn from it. But so far all my interview looks good but in the end no answer.So i dun want to have a hope on this one which i think I might have a chance.

First I had an interview with Mr Badrul (Under falculty Of Art & Design). And he is really nice guy.

Then he began to ask question. I am blank acctually since I dunno what I am doing there and maybe I think I'm not good enough for the position.And he saw my pointer which is below 3.00 and he began to ask what makes me a good candidate since they will only hired people who posses 3.00 and above. And I answered quite well. And I also mention I extended my year due to financial and I fail one subject which is economy subject due to some personal problem and I dun want to remind myself of my hardship during my study ...but I have done the best I can with no computer and laptop at the moment and with working part time to pay my fees. But I say to him that I love to teach and I'm willing to learn new things. He dun really interested in me since my pointer is almost 3 but not 3.Lastly I show my project and he then say to me "yeah you can go for the 2nd interview". He also gives me tips..and he said ..I must show my project to the next interviewer which is the founder and I said yes..ok..hahaha..so here goes little me carrying my big bag down and wait for azma to finish her interview.

Like I expected,Azma also proceed to the 2nd interview. She is very friendly u know and I i began to get attach to her ..or maybe we are in the same field. So we are rushing to meet Dato and I left my bag downstair huhu...luckily its still alive when i finish my interview. Haha...about my interview with dato'..He look at me and I was blank a bit and he began to ask me about MIIM. I am a bit rude i guess since I just said pardon me?hoho..hopefully he is good...(yeah handsome guy for his age...but mesti byk bini isk isk)..mengatal jap bile tgk jejaka kacak..hahahahaha.

Well I did promote myself and Lastly I show my portfolio and he is really impress i think and he contact someone ..2 person walk in...and Dato' ask them to see my portfolio..and I walk with them..and here goes the 3rd interview.I think I would be in Multimedia Course/Centre but suddenly,they began to talk about broadcasting hahahaha very funny..and then a question come out asking me why I applied for broadcasting lecturer and I said..I am not applying for broadcasting..but I am applying for Multimedia. And a a few question were ask If I know about copywriting and script writing but I say I dunno . And They also ask me about advertising as well and I can answer well. Then at 6 the interview is settle...3 hours ...yeah forget to mention I also did mention about my master degree which is in corporate communication.

Even if I dun get the job but I am happy meeting people.I will updated my portfolios and hopefully it would bring me joy..I am not sure If I am a good lecturer for my students now..and If I got the job,I am afraid that the students in KLMU will be different from my beloved student here.

So Pray for me...hopefully I will get result at the end of this month and began in August...but if I fail..Its ok..I love my students and I will guide them to produce the best final project and the best viva they ever had....

Yeah drivin test?urghh...tunggu ucuk balik..he will be here in malaysia nextweek..marriage?takutnye...hopefully his parent doesn't kill me...Acctually he said that his father will tell his mother about us..and I'm freaking out since they dun like me at all...maybe I should paint my skin lah..when I go and meet them. I will pray that there will be no fight with his parent after coming back home..if..there is..I just need to back off...(harap2 ade jodoh aminn)

To ucuk my love..because of you.. I learn so much in 3D animation even though what u teach me is very basic for you..and I am lucky to know a person who is respected by all students in MMU in your batch because of your great talent.....I will do what you ask me to do...updating my portfolio and I can't wait to show you my frog model which is cacat a bit..lame tk update..jadik gitula...lupe techniques

2009-07-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

Miley Cyrus widget by 6L & Daxii

Just me singging...on the spot..hahaha..the editing is bad I know..but then I broke my mic so...just go with it..yup yup..as long as you know what song I love..nice lyric eh...love this song so much!!:P

2009-07-13T23:10:00.001-07:00

hye hye...i FAIL my driving test..i dunno when i need to redo the test...You wat?I fail because of carelessness...I hate to mention but it is not a good thing to remember...very frustrating event hahahaha... so next time hopefully..ok dokey...

Today is my 3d animation subject test and all my students can answer the paper hip hip hurrayyy!! looking forward to the meeting on outing for DMP/DVC next week.

My sister awin got a place in ASWARA..congratulation ..to her cause she passed the test ,storyboarding and interview with flying colors(Dat is why she got it)!hopefully she can excell in film industry.

Afterwards I need to look for software...like adobe cs3..I really need to update my portfolios...before I register my master degree which is at the end of this year..GANBATTE!!have a BIG DREAM..TRY to TAKE RISK

caiyokk caiyokk!

2009-06-28T04:27:00.000-07:00

My ucuk is allready gone to italy to gain money for our marriage..he gives me his cimb card ..the content is just RM200...but I'm still happy with what he had done..he said if he is in italy more than a month then the cimb card will be usefull to me...I missed him allright..hahaha...

I am a very coward gurl..and I am not very brave..so..I dun think I pass my driving test tomorrow..I'm very afraid now..ucuk is not here and I dunno who I want to hang my feelings for tomorrow...I hope everything will be allright and my family will pray for me always..Hope for the best tomorrow..

Afterward I will had my last drivin lesson at p.m t 7 (or maybe not last)...Pray for me..oink oink..oink..

2009-06-28T04:19:00.000-07:00

K this is outing to janda baik...melepaskan tensen.....hehehe..very memorable moment...seronok outing situ..mandi manda...tapi kaki tergeliat time tu..and pakcik benggong si dell tu ..membuatku naik angin sebentar..hoho..apela nasib...si kering yg suke tergeliat kaki...isk...

Well..I did get a job in childrens..workshop or somehting...the work is not suitable so i quit...so now stop goin to interview..better focus on my students and make them excell much further...and plan to make the best showcase for DMP next semester...you'll see...moga berjaya dengan bantuan Fuzan...the cutest lecturer ..in multimedia now..hehehe..

2009-06-19T04:03:00.000-07:00

hye bad news..I thought rythm and hues training will be in cyberjaya..and guess what?it will be in INDIA..so bye2 opportunity..huhu...nangis tak berlagu....

So..now...tgh dok cari kerja lagi..sana sini...huhu....sekian..doalah untuk saye..amin...I dun have any more job to look further...sebab seme tk dpt...am I dat DUMB?

2009-06-16T04:46:00.000-07:00

lupe nak upload..kak emmy nikah..comey tk comey tk?she's a lecturer in UITM now under falculty Health & Science(tak silap)...and her husband is a lecturer also at UM...congratulation kak emmy...I really can't believe she is edy married hehehe..she's a year older than me..

2009-06-10T02:03:00.000-07:00

Ha..I dun get a job...but I still keep in touch with Rythm & hues..I lost my confidence since the tutorial didn't do any well..Today I received a offer letter to proceed my master degree in UPM. Registration is nextweek 19 june and I need to have RM1900 for the registration.

My job is not secure now and I just received only rm400 for Last month payment. HR said the balance will be credited tomorrow. Maybe I need to extend my master degree...

I am so frustrated right now since I'm still working in the same place for 2 years now..Pray for me....huhuhu

2009-06-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

Today..is my birthday...me and ucuk went out...tak gi mane pon..gi KLCC jerk...tgk gallery petronas....Acctually we want to watch movie but the crowd is really pack...so..we just ronda2...eat at little penang cafe...I got a ring today..and 3 days back lan bought me a scanner...

I got so many wishes for this year..maybe because of my YM status i'm not sure but..I'm really happy..THANKS A BUNCH GUYS ESPECIALLY UCUK..DIEHA..ADI...AWIN..AND ALL OF YOU..For dinner..I just ate 2 slice of burger and yogurt drink...The pictures showing up here is just for fun..hahaha...I am kinda bored while waiting for my ucuk a.k.a. Lan to come so...tade mende kan...dok menangkap gamba gedik(over gediks ya)..using webcam..and guess what?dah ade pertambahan wrinkle di bawah mateku...oh...nvm..hati mude tidak menjadi masalah...kan kan..

2009-06-05T21:20:00.000-07:00

tomorrow IS my birthday..6 june 2009 and I'm turning 27 haha...not yet married and still meggie is my favourite dish sebab duit gaji still pending dan pending...huhu...hopefully will heard a good news by nextweek....harap haraplah..aminnnn....at 2 tomorrow..I'm going out with ucuk a.k.a lan..he also did not have any plan but tgkla camne perjalanan .....I dun think it will be special day to me since i'M OLD..what is there to celebrate,...for...tua janggut...huhu

2009-06-05T05:14:00.000-07:00

yeah...still thinking of hana...last week I got missed call from her..hehe...hope she still remember me..tomorrow is me bday...6 june..and I'm turning 27 this year..erghh..damn old..so..wait for my blog entry ...Rythm and hues called..he asked me to finish up my tutorial before nextweek..the training started 27th July 2009..but the job is not confirm yet..and dasien...Mr ady said he want to contact me nextweek..but still..I'm not sure if I got the job...huhu...ade rezeki akan adela kan..

2009-05-10T01:34:00.000-07:00

2009-05-08T20:38:00.000-07:00

Rythm and Hues is just a training program which job is not guarenteed...I need to take risk IF i go for the training..and I am confuse ..should I search for education industry job,further my master or take the risk..training in Rythm and Hues..after august...I am not sure if I am good enough for the company..

2009-05-07T06:19:00.000-07:00

TAK DPT GAJI LAGII!!all lecturer allready received their payment except for me and a few more(the one who is really soft hearted included me!)DAMN!...

Anyway today i got interview .When I arrived there,a lot of candidated waiting...I think today I went for the wrong position..most of the candidates from IT background which is suitable for the post -junior webmaster except for me ..the one who is one and only person who knows video editing and animation plus advertising..more to designing..lalala...But still...at least I got the interview...

After the interview...we went to lowyat to buy lan's mouse.He is searching for one..and manage to buy RM139 value of gaming mouse wallaa!!(byknyeh duit diee-katenye..walau tade duit..janji selesa..dan leh pakai lame..tk rugi..tak rugi..).Then we go to timesquare to eat and do the camera tracking exercise(RTYHM & HUES).Hopefully I got the place for the training they mention which might started after august..yeah hopefully..I finally manage to do the tracking exercise..with the support from Mr EXPERT a.k.a Lan..and submit to the person in charge in rythm and hues..(yeah the exercise still not goin too well...jerk here and there but at least..finish!).

Opss I forgot to mention...I used Lan's mouse to fine tune the camera..and its work perfectly good..then later ...lan ask me if i want to buy a mouse since i'm goin to redo it. And..on second though i said yes..so we went to buy a mouse. We came to the same shops where he bought his mouse..Suddenly he saw one mouse which he was interested so much and decided to buy it for himself and he want me to have his mouse(acctually the mouse that he is interested is cheaper -RM109)and its black...So ...again...hihip hurray for me!I got a new mouse!(tidak disangke)..

Then the two of us went back to our home and rest until the next day to come...

2009-05-03T05:27:00.000-07:00

During this weekend..I made some corn pudding..(acctually this is for aida and k nor,my officemate who want it too bad hehehe...tomorrow I bring it to them).This pudding remind me of my first meeting with my boy(ucuk)..he saw my status which mention about corn pudding...at that time I was eager to make lotsa pudding(bored with life i guess and stress out so I cook)and I brought it to him and he said its good...and that's how it goes...followed by nasi lemak..chocolate pudding,lychee pudding,mee bandung,fried kuew tiow...hahaha...and i dunno he doesn't mention to me that he fall for me thru my cook so..hopefully not..haha..

It just when I made this corn pudding..its means something special to me cause that is my first dish for him which is not really good but he said it good..Thank GOD..if he said it otherwise...i'm goin to break his neck and head !! HAHAHHAHAHAHA-EVIL LAUGH..

So there's how my corn pudding story goes...so await for tomorrow when the two of mighty princess taste my corn pudding...(need to be fully prepared to run for me life!!yoyo...and heyy!at least I've done my promise!hehe)

2009-05-03T04:56:00.000-07:00

Very well..tomorrow is working..end of holiday...ewww..hate monday just like garfield did..I dun received any of salary and still waiting for the money to flow into my bank account.Hopefully ...tomorrow..

Hahaha very weird to find me buying some thing that is not really important such as frame during time like this..(I guess I prefer to eat meggie and be amuse with all the arty work of mine).I only got RM50 ..to last and my maybank balance is just RM5.65...feel bad about that and a bit scared...

I add up 3 more frames which took me RM15 for all ...after bought the frame I felt guilt...regret with what i did since the money is not growing!!Now here's my wall..I had 9 frames on my wall ..I want to full my walls with lotsa more...

I will draw..paint..my beautiful creature which is froggies..and ...do some vectoring and took photos..(I need to think that twice since not enough to buy even a cheap digital camera urghhh!)..

Yeah...let's enjoy the moment of money crisis...and start to fullfill your life with meggie mee~~Long LIVE MEGGIE MEE!!!

2009-05-03T00:17:00.000-07:00

I bought this book even I have limited cash..hahaha...yeah my weaknesses..can't run into a book store..surely bought at least 1 book. I've read this and...it a very simple book..the author is zabrina A. Bakar. I think she is a very nice person based on her writing..

.When I start reading this...Its a bit shock since I am a part of what she said without realising that the act that I did all this while which sometimes makes me think it could be my weaknesses is a good way of living as an individual....It calm me a bit cause all this while I spent my money to others(my hobby which I like so much) which cause me to fast and sometimes ignore my need(as long as I am happy)...could be a charity..and I hope Its true..

In this book the writing is a bit boring and the words is like a child who writes things..so its not natural..but the content is very good...and some of the wise saying is great....I guess without she writes it out..I probably thinks that a lot of individual have the same thought as she did..They just dun writes it out...and a lot more motivational writers do try to deliver the same outcome..

It is good for others to remind themselves by reading this.For me this book is suitable for kid age 12 and above..but can be read by everyone for a reminder..Lastly..Its a good book to just read and remind ourselves..afterall we are not perfect ..yeah..wise saying.."If you want to serve God..serve people"...so serve her and bought her book..it would be helping others to gain success and hopefully others will help you..too...

2009-04-23T06:37:00.000-07:00

hahahaha..very cute eh...well..a bit exhausted today...full of things in my mind..I wanna get my drivin liciense as fast as I can. By june I want it to be settle before I proceed my master degree...and get a car...hahaha...angan2 aaa...adeh...when I look at the frog picture...it remind me of me..the confused looking me...stuck in a twing..holding ..and holding ..for how long..I'm not sure...

2009-04-22T06:09:00.000-07:00

Today is Ucuk Bday..I bought him a small cake and a shirt .But it is not much since his gift to me is far more precious than what i give to him...After work we just celebrate bday in jusco alpha angle..hehe..our time is limited so we dun really spent much time on his bday..by the way..thanks to aida...my officemate who accompany me to buy the present and the cake ..hihi..

2009-04-16T04:59:00.000-07:00

Akhirnye dpt beli frame untuk print illustrator saye..hoho..baru 5..nanti nak kumpul2 agi..yess...now..I dun really like 3D since I dun used maya for so long..I hate lightwave...not user friendly at all..I had apply work at ABU-Asia pasific broadcasting Union but i dun think I got the job..since lotsa competition..(my interview is good actually but I dun hav the confident when i see a lot of candidate interviewing...haha..and another option I got so far is rythm and hues..I want the job so bad...but the tutorial is not ok..maya having problem...lotsa tools missing in my maya and the tutorial not really going well..but I allready send emails to them and I hope they understand and helping me to get through...even though its root is from las vegas and they got a big facilities in india...so most of the people in charge in rythm and hues is from India...but i just dun care as long as I have the opportunity to work in an international company..and get to have a contact with people all around the world...

Hoping..and keep hoping...about my drivin liciense?...i hate drivin..but what can I do...I just need to have that..huhu..

2009-04-07T05:06:00.000-07:00

hehehe I got this from email..oh my goodness...can u imagine..this?how could they do something like this...hahaha...kinda funny...but actually..it can insulted the women..this bottle design will be a hot seller for pervert(men of course)..but acctually its kinda cute for collection..very unique..hahaha

2009-04-07T04:48:00.000-07:00

I just wanna show a few of my collection..I began to collect all these and in the future I wanted to collect more of it...most of my collection is froggie bank...now I got 3 froggie bank...3 froggie mug...1 froggie frying pan...1 froggie soft toy 4 froggie key chain...hopefully I will get more of the froggie collection...bet after this..I wanna buy a froggie mat...hehehe..

2009-04-04T23:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday..after work...me and my ucuk (who is now back from italy)wondering in jusco...dat's the only place we could go since ..he only had limited hour with me due to restriction(mum and dad sindrome).I always love to go to gift shops and souvinier shops or toy shops. So as ussual I will enter s & J gift shop and I saw this cute little frog pan..hehehe..I wanted to but it but my ucuk says...are you always using it..then I just browse thru and go out of the shops...after that next shop would me the folio shop...and again I saw the same frog pan...and I couldn't resist it anymore...hahaha..the price in folio shop was RM39.90(but 50% discount)so It would be RM20.Then after a while thinking...I'm afraid I would have dream it since I love the frog shape..its sooo cuteee...so I went and bought it in s& j gift shop for RM12.90...yeah it is expensive I know....Today..I tried to used the pan to cook egge..and wallaaaa!!!here's the result...gee is it cute~~menu for the day..fried meggie mee..with fresh salad and..frog shape egg!!hehehe

2009-03-16T08:37:00.000-07:00

My ucuk is on his way back for 2 weeks..from italy and he's good...I already moved from setiawangsa to wangsa maju hahaha...from near to far...but I am VERY HAPPY..i got my own privacy and I can be myself..I know I am not a good lecturer and I need to try my best to be good..and it's disappoint me a bit..cause I am not what i used to be..the enegertic kid during her studies even though she only got B for her final project......

Well...above picture...yeah..now I;m talking about my above picture.I want to buy a bag to fill in my laptop . I browse with my officemate for some time and..I found this!very cute eh..?by the way..the keychain..is not included..hehehe...I bought the keychain because.....i won't mention why cause I know you already knows...gee...

A.S.A.P. babe..

2009-02-26T17:04:00.000-08:00

hye again..and salam..

I'm now in da office...I'm gonna moved from the nereast place to my office to a bit far away from my office...why?haha..lets keep it a secret..I prefer a privacy place to stay rather involved with the students...

A bit physco for me to think of it..but perhaps its a good decision..I just go with the flow..I did not know why I make that decision but as far as I concern there must be a reason for all this to happen and God knows why...

I dun hav any fight with my housemate..they are too young for me to get involved in fighting ..I am 27 this year for God sake...I dun hav time to get in their games..Guess I prefer to stay alone and stay out.

Lotsa things I plan but till now I dun see any improvement ...maybe cause I dun take any actions..why?bored with life .....need a peaceful environment..yeah yeah..

The house that I'm goin to move in is not as good as now..but I am ok with it...

2009-02-14T18:38:00.001-08:00

hey there..I'm now on my knee on posting in the blog more often than ussual..haha..why?Yeah..just for fun and just to remember all the good things and the bad things happen to me since in school...and out of school...

Back to 1994-During my UPSR....I'm kinda a quite person..dun talk with people much..so I only had a few good friends like Fadilah.syahida....I'm not sure where are they now..except for shahida and fadilah...I still hav their contacts but they just recently married...(I did not go for their marriage due to no transportation and I did not know the way and how to go there at that time..now to think of it.. I might hav took the taxi to go there..haha)

Back to 1999- SPM...hoho..I'm a bit talkative for some people that is close to me...like shahenaz...yasmin....riza..includes fadilah,shahida....Now Yasmin is a doctor..riza is an engineer and shahenaz... she's a teacher...Hope to see them some day since we are all busy with work and we are quite far from each other.

Then 2000 started- I was in MMU...acctually I got a place in UITM for diploma IT and I rejected it...I dun really regret it cause I found my true love in MMU...(what can u expect)..During my time in MMU...I dun really talk about others and I dun really mixed with them since I got mingle in a situation where people called me "talam dua muka"..but when they had a conference....It was all a big mistake...and some people used to say "haih..mcmlah die tu baik sgt"...to me..but still i dun disturb others...cause i know in every word I said..always there will be a positive words from me...people assume things and I dun really like it...so even though lotsa people appreciate me for that still I want to be the best person as I can and I dun manage to be one..since I am still a human being...hoho yeah yeah is so true mcmlah aku ni baik sgt...I can be an evil creature waiting for a victim to appear..yey...Now Geng is arrive...lets support them......

And I also heard all MIIM staff dun like me?It is from a students..very funny though..since I dun mingle with other people bussiness ..how come they hate me for that?I really dun makes trouble in the office..I just doing my own bussiness...and I am an envious person?to be frank I laugh when I heard that..hahaha...If I envy..I won't become a person who teach people to become successfull in life..might as well I just ignore them and left on the first place...extend for 3 years..doing jobs for other people and they get to convo before I do...what is the meaning of that?luxuries?I dun really care what I wear and I dun really bother if people wear an expensive cloth...cause it is just things...Is better for me not to buy an expensive cloth since I know the money might as well gone to the poor or people who need it rather than one piece of expensive cloth or any other luxuries...Once in a while would be ok...food is double ok...I had it all in my mind...so..dun bother what people said..even though I know I am an emotional person..very da..

2009-02-10T04:00:00.000-08:00

HRD Notice of a company to employees!

Dear STAFF,

Please be advised that these are NEW rules and regulations implemented to
raise the efficiency of our firm.

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1) TRANSPORTATION:

It is advised that you come to work driving a car according to your
salary.

A) If we see you driving a Honda, we assume you are doing well financially
and therefore you do not need a raise.

B) If you drive a 10 year old car or taking public transportation, we
assume you must have lots of savings therefore you do not need a raise.

C) If you drive a Pickup, you are right where you need to be and therefore
you do not need a raise.

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2) ANNUAL LEAVE :

Each employee will receive 104 Annual Leave days a year ( Wow! Said 1
employee).

- They are called SATURDAYs AND SUNDAYs.

P/s: I'm working half day on saturdays..even worst..

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3) LUNCH BREAK:

A) Skinny people get 30 minutes for lunch as they need to eat more so that
they can look healthy.

B) Normal size people get 15 minutes for lunch to get a balanced meal to
maintain their average figure.

C) Fat people get 5 minutes for lunch, because that's all the time needed
to drink a Slim Fast and take a diet pill.

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4) SICK DAYS:

We will no longer accept a doctor Medical Cert as proof of sickness.

- If you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to come to work.

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5) SURGERY :

As long as you are an employee here, you need all your organs.

- You should not consider removing anything. We hired you intact.

- To have something removed constitutes a breach of employment.

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6) INTERNET USAGE :

All personal Internet usage will be recorded and charges will be deducted
from your bonus (if any) and if we decide not to give you any, charges

Will be deducted from your salary.

- Important Note: Charges applicable as RM.20 per minute as we have 10MB
connection.

Just for information, 73% of staff will not be entitled to any salary for
next 3 months as their Internet charges have exceeded their 3 months
salary.

Thank you for your loyalty to our company. We are here to provide a
positive employment experience.

Therefore, all questions, comments, concerns, complaints, frustrations,
irritations, aggravations, insinuations, allegations, accusations,
contemplation, consternation and input should be directed somewhere else.

Best Regards,
HRD

I got this from friends..by fwd emails...the good ones from the HR Department....

2009-01-29T07:21:00.000-08:00

I'm lying here on my comforter thinking.....I dun really care what people might think of me but still I'm a human being...Sometimes I began to think...even in a family ..we do fight because we care for each other and the attachment we had and its makes us even closer....but then when its come into people we mingle...like the people who always around us ..at work...at home..anywhere in this world..If we are attach with one another..argument is always around...I'm thinking now..that during my studies i endure people talking back on me and i dun really care cause i know that sometimes things that is out of the mouth is just the temperament..It is just a word from a human being who is not perfect at all...However...now...when i remember back..how i talk about people just because i dun feel good in myself..it makes me really bad..

So to avoid that always i need to remind to myself that please think positive and talk positive of others even though they might not like you at all...I had tried that from high school..but in the process..i can't hold it..its just I need to express myself to others as well.

Still when i think that when i talk about the person i dun really feel good to another person i called frens it doesn't mean that i hate the person i dun feel good..because i know each and every person in this world had a good heart in them ,it is just that i dun feel comfortable with some attitude he/she got..even some people dun comfortable with my attitude either(i can be fussy and over emotional for God Sake and I am not perfect at all so i appologize those who talk about me).So when that another person think that i talk about the person and for heaven sake that another person is a fren of the person i talk about and the another person tells the person ...the argument occurs..can you see?what i'm talking about?To stop that..dun express urself to others(so you can make frens with the ghost)or maybe put urself in a bottle and just dun talk about people at all...talk good talk good and talk good even though you know that the person you talk good is not good at all...but it can be good to other people..i dunno..maybe...hahaha..

I dun really understand people..i dun really understand myself and I just want to be a good person..do good and not disturb other people's life...So now i'm praying that I can be a good human being..I pray...and I think of Allah 24/7 ..still i am not perfect...I am just a human being..Allah knows better..

saket!!

2008-12-22T06:48:00.000-08:00

I will handle 3 subjects including fyp(final year project).I will be doom hahaha.And moreover i also need to handle dmp showcase03...yeah...I will be dead soon...(nice job sista~~u ask for it)but...i'm happy for the sake of the students...Hopefully i will make it!ganbatte!tomorrow is the first class.But i won't do any lecture,just discussion~~

2008-12-13T09:15:00.000-08:00

We had been robbed(in da office)...haha i lost my laptops and handphone and.....money.....its sucks...its a hard thing to be remember cause I was like stupid..following the robbers instruction......I still can't forget my laptops...so they took 4 laptops include mine....2 handphones includes mine..and only my money over rm150 i guess...asshole freak...THEY WILL DIE IN PAIN!!!tomorow i want to go and look for laptops(just survey).Hopefully can find cheaper price.

2008-12-03T05:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah..yeah...huhu...after came back from zoo negara(that volunteer program thingy),I sit back and relax..later while reading chip magazines plus other comic books,i realize that my lips had swollen a bit. And its a bit itch like a mosquito bites...uwaaa..tomorrow i dunno how i supposed to hide this lips..

2008-12-03T05:43:00.000-08:00

Today for students intensive program..,we organized a volunteer program under zoo negara..Its really interesting.The student need to do some volunteer work such as feeding the animals ,cleaning cages and so on. I will uploaded some photos in my facebook since the photos we capture is using Erna's camera.So guess i need to wait until she uploaded it. Its fun...a bit tiring and a great experiences. By the way...dats my first time going to zoo negara..hahahaha..and i think i won't get bored by watching the animals....really cute and entertaining...

2008-11-20T05:47:00.000-08:00

My mother is sick...I am worried sick of her. She's weak...I tried to take leave just to take care of her...but at the same time..I need to settle all the work which consider a full responsibility.

But my mother is the number one thing I need to think,same goes to my father.

2008-10-27T10:04:00.000-07:00

Hehe sowey dieha...lambat balas..tag....I was tag by my best fwen..dieha...and i dunno who i would like to tag ....ermmm...this is the result..weird things eh...if you read this..you can considered yourself being tag by me...

The Rules...
State 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.

1 - I hate to Answer phone calls, only SMS

I don’t know why. I really hate when people call, maybe I dun like to talk on the phone, and I prefer sms rather than speak on the phone.

2. - Obsess to any soft toy of anything related with frogs

Now. I tend to collect anything that have a cute figure of green frogs. I had a frog face fan, a few soft toy of frogs , small umbrella with frogs face…and many green stuff. People might think that frogs is an ugly creature but for me it’s really cute.

3. - Love to treat people

This is the weird things I think that stuck to me to this day..I love to treat people even though I dun really have much money. If I had enough…I will definitely try to pay for all. Sometimes I rather not eat..cause I ter belanja over for my friends and family(I dun really mind actually)…haha…dat is why I remain kering…

4.- I hate praises

This is thing is in me..I dun trust people….seriously…when somebody praises me…I know that it mean something else…especially when it is about my physical look….since I already know that I am skinny,ugly and not pretty so when people says something about how pretty I am…I get pissed off….and I tend to say bad things about them in my heart like freaky idiotic people..damn!!fuck off~~~

5- I hate carrots

Haha…I dunno when I started hate to eat carrot….Whenever I eat fried rice or anything that had mixed vegetables …I tend to arrange it on my plate without me realizing it…even a tiny single piece of carrot.

6- I can read people by seeing pictures

I dunno,I just can guess people by looking at the pictures. Just need some concentration and walla..my guess turn out to be true like I picture before I get to know him/her closely ..hoho very weird eh?pretty weird…I’m scared…uuu

7- I love eggs

I love egg so much. I can eat eggs everyday without a single feeling of boredness. Anything that comes with egg is a special thing for me….wuv wuv eggs so much~~give me protein ..kowt..hoho

8- Split personality

I got this split personality ,sometimes I can be shy,cute,sweet and soft but at other time I can change into tomboy type,very rough and outspoken…huhuhu

9- Cartoon Character

Sometimes I can be like a cartoon character hehehe…but it depend on the situation…This thing was told by my friends. I tend to act like a cartoon according to my mood…and always love to create a cartoon voice..such as doraemon…

10- I get crazy when I’m angry or stress

If I get stress I tend to lose my temper…but sometimes weird thing happens…I can be cheerful during stress or tension situation..hoho..very weird eh..

11- I love to talk to toys

Hehe..this oso my weird habit…I love talking to all my toys…if I feel lonely or bored…..what to do…

12-Hate to be treated by guys

I got this funny principle in me…that when a guys always treat me with food or bought me something good and I just known him for just 2 days. I tend to get really mad…..Yeah most of gurls do loves to be treated..but for me I feel cheap…..I am not a person who can be bought by money even though he was saying as a token of friendships…no matter who they are..where do they come from……I just don’t care.. know me first…cause for me my friendship can’t be bought by money….I don’t need people’s money to live…If the money is for helping me in need …I will pays the friendship by paying back if he/she is in need….It would be all right….just don’t treat me with money if I can still had it..give it to the poor ….it would be much better…

13- Love to be simple

I love to be simple and I love the way I am…..comot,...bosan dan selamba badak....hoho

14-Dancing…

Nobody knows that I love to dance….I had copied a lot of dancing steps when I am small. At 5 year old…I can follow Michael Jackson steps…and whenever I heard songs..my heart tend to get excited and I will dance sometimes to release all the tension. The weird part is..when I’m dancing….and people found it really good…and if they ask me to repeat..I’ll forget all the steps… haha very funny…now I dun think I can dance very well…

15-Singing when sad..

Singing can me my passion sometimes…I sing sometimes when feeling sad..hehehe…..it can be happy songs…even though I am sad at the moment...

2008-10-20T07:58:00.000-07:00

2008-10-15T08:47:00.000-07:00

2008-10-14T07:18:00.000-07:00

2008-10-09T22:48:00.000-07:00

This is during Multimedia Management Class. A few student...brings their raya cookies and everything and also they capture my cakar ayam hand writing. Mmg cakar ayam yer....I hate writings on the board..pleasee...Then later I treat them drinks loh....sempena raya walaupon dh pokai...but still tomorrow I intend to do an open house for them to come...

Acctually...ikram ,one of my student brought the camera for tuan syed class.Tuan syed also had some makan2 with them..but my luck maybe..I get to have a photo with them..Its a great moment for me since I dun really know how to mixed with my student much

2008-10-07T10:38:00.000-07:00

I just bought the umbrella~~~comeykan comeynyeh....but..i dun think i got the gut to use it in public..hahahaha....ong ong kedek kedek...~~

2008-09-25T22:31:00.000-07:00

Ari ni...sgt kelakar...main bunga api...hehe...seme dh tua-tua yeh....sgt comeyy....

2008-09-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

Read Between the lines~~~Green Sunflower...Sucks

2008-09-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

I was given this link and here's the result haha...sgt lawakkk.....

2008-09-14T09:00:00.001-07:00

Pilihan warna singkap personaliti

WARNA menyimpan seribu makna yang secara tidak langsung menterjemahkan perasaan atau keinginan seseorang. Lebih bahaya, warna juga kononnya mampu mentafsir kelebihan dan kelemahan diri sama ada garang, lembut, pemurah atau periang.

Rona merah, misalnya lambang keghairahan dan berani. Mereka yang menggayakannya dikatakan memiliki personaliti tegas dan penuh keyakinan diri untuk menonjolkan kelebihan diri. Namun, awas merah juga lambang diri yang tamak dan pendendam.

Sekiranya anda ditimpa perasaan tidak menentu sehingga menjejaskan hubungan dengan ahli keluarga atau rakan sekerja, pilihlah warna ceria yang memberikan ketenangan seperti biru kerana ia bukan saja mampu menenangkan urat saraf yang tegang, tetapi turut meningkatkan kreativiti diri.

Apa yang penting, warna perlu digunakan dengan tepat kerana warna boleh memberi semangat serta kesenangan dalam setiap aspek kehidupan. Ia boleh bermula dari rumah hinggalah cara berhias dan pemilihan pakaian.

Apakah anda berani menggayakan warna beraneka dan terang? Terserah kepada anda untuk menyingkap siapa diri anda sebenarnya.

Mengenali warna dan sifatnya

Emas

# Positif: Banyak ilmu dan gemarkan kejayaan. Memiliki kemampuan kuasa semula jadi yang besar, sabar dan bijaksana serta suka menolong.

# Negatif: Gemar menyendiri dan bersikap terlalu tertutup.

Putih
# Positif: Lebih mencerminkan sifat sabar, sopan santun, rendah diri, suka menolong dan gemar berjenaka serta mudah dipujuk apabila merajuk. Juga mempunyai fikiran yang bersih iaitu tidak banyak prasangka terhadap orang lain. Perasaan hati sentiasa tenteram dan hidup bertawakal.

# Negatif: Boros berbelanja

Kuning
# Positif: Berjiwa lembut atau halus dan sentiasa mendapat perhatian. Penuh kasih sayang dan berhemah serta sentiasa ceria. Positif dan sangat optimis serta memiliki senyum yang luar biasa dan tidak suka didesak. Sangat setia kepada pasangan.

# Negatif: Sikap terlalu agresif mungkin membuat orang lain menjadi takut. Anda juga cengeng (sering menangis) dan mudah menyerah.

Merah
# Positif: Bersikap berani, jujur, berdisiplin dan tegas. Sangat aktif dan disenangi serta bersikap terbuka. Anda juga senang menjadi pusat perhatian orang lain kerana kadangkala anda ingin mencuba segala-galanya. Suka tersenyum dan suka memberi atau menerima kasih sayang orang lain.

# Negatif: Mempunyai perasaan pendendam yang tinggi, tamak dan mudah tersinggung.

Hijau
# Positif : Rajin dan jujur bekerja di samping, tekun serta sabar melakukan sesuatu. Pencinta keharmonian dan kedamaian serta sentiasa dahagakan ilmu.

# Negatif: Terlalu mudah percaya dan kadangkala pendirian yang teguh membuatkan anda seakan-akan kolot.

Merah jambu
# Positif : Seorang yang tegas dan jujur. Anda juga suka membantu dan orang lain serta begitu teliti dalam semua perkara.

# Negatif: Tidak suka dibantah dan suka mendesak bagi memenuhi kehendak.

Coklat
# Positif: Jika anda seorang wanita anda kaya dengan sifat keibuan. Suka merendah diri dan halus budi pekerti. Anda juga gemar menambahkan ilmu di dada.

# Negatif: Mudah dipujuk dan mempercayai orang. Cepat berasa was-was dan takut berbuat salah.

Perak
# Positif: Mendengar kata dan pendengar yang baik dan disenangi orang lain.

# Negatif: Mudah putus asa dan cepat merendah diri.

Ungu
# Positif: Suka berjenaka dan rajin. Bersikap pemurah dan tidak suka diperintah.
Mempunyai inisiatif yang keinginan yang tinggi dan meluap-luap.

# Negatif: Sombong dan sedikit emosi.

Hitam
# Positif: Prihatin, baik hati dan kuat menghadapi dugaan hidup. Tidak mudah dipengaruhi dan gemar berfikir serta setia pada pasangan.

# Negatif: Suka menyendiri, prihatin, tetapi cepat tersinggung.

Kelabu
# Positif: Mendengar kata dan suka merendah diri. Sentiasa tenang dan suka mengalah, serta mudah berkorban.

# Negatif: Cengeng dan agak pemalas

Jingga
# Positif: Ramah, jujur dan rajin bekerja serta bercita-cita tinggi.

# Negatif: Cengeng dan cepat mengalah dengan tekanan.

Biru
# Positif: Ada ketenangan atau kesejukan dalam diri anda dan juga menjadi warna kegemaran ramai. Cintakan kedamaian dan berharap dicintai ketika berada di mana-mana. Selain bertanggungjawab dan pandai menyimpan wang anda sering membuat orang lain berperasaan yang sama terhadap pandangan anda.

# Negatif: Bersikap terlalu memaksa orang lain terhadap kehendak anda dan ada kala bersifat angkuh.

Which color is you?

2008-09-14T06:40:00.000-07:00

Dekat Falkulti..
Dekat Unimas...

Pas beli kek lapis..

Belakang ..kanan...Kak Faza..Cia...,Dari Depan..Abg Fon and My Ucuk tercinta...yang berbaju biru

Dekat Cultural Village

This is a picture taken during our trip to sarawak for my sister convocation..LOts more photo can be seen in my facebook..I will upload it later...

2008-09-11T13:53:00.000-07:00

Hey..there....It's now 5.02 in the morning....Feel like going back to bed after having my sahur..(Nasi ayam n plain water)...but I can't.I still keep thinking of...people talking at the back and so on...meaning...why does people keep talking about others as well?Do we human being was born to be like that?Sometimes...I feel stupid to think that there is a society called human who were afraid to be called stupid?why?do they really stupid and afraid to admit that they are stupid?haha..inferior..I should stop talking about things and just keep my mouth shut...just do me job and plan for me future. This is why I am afraid to mingle with people...telling stories...and people interpret something different and so on. Maybe I should start enjoying myself even though my salary is just way to cheap ..hoho...K then time to have some rest....Zzzzz

2008-09-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

OUR PLANET DURING THE NIGHT~~

OUR PLANET DURING THE DAY~~

Got this in my mail fwd msg and I find it very interesting...How spectacular is the Creation of Allah....very beautiful..dun u think?

2008-09-10T15:07:00.000-07:00

10th SEPTEMBER 2008

Me ..nani and dida went to media prima for visiting students.....the first supervisor is sweet....me being kalut2 at first as usual then ...later ok a bit..but when come to alif....the assistant producer approach me first so i thought...he was the producer..and I gave him my card..later on...another one came...actually he is the real supervisor..,(the producer from indonesia).,I try to check whet er i got extra card but sadly..i dun have...,takdir kot..uwaaa..malu siot..and because of that percakapan pon jadik tunggang terbalik....and i just mention to the producer that I thought he was from sabah..not from indonesia..huhuhu....sgt maluuuuuuuuuu..hopefully....the producer understand..and not think very bad...to me..sadisnya...tu la...kalot2 lagi,..tapi ape boleh buat...dh jadik cam habitat dalaman diri,..hukhuk....feel bad all the way..back home...cam nak terjun mangunan pon ader..,adeh...,11th september....BERNAMA(following nani)..will bring extra card.loh..aiyaiyaii

2008-09-09T13:51:00.000-07:00

TUESDAY...

come back from work beli murtabak....berbuka ngan murtabak dengan air kusung hukhuk...sowang2...atas tilam...bertemankan my soft toy friggie..,tiddy..teddy...and mashi...uhukkk.....

Duduk jap..tetibe ucuk call..sembang jap..pastu..tetibe ngantuks.....kul 1 pagi...goreng nugget siap2(takot malas)..terlanding...bzzzz...sempat kunci jap kul 430.....

WEDNESDAY

430....hoho..termangun ngan kejotan jam...kelam kabot..gi peti ais...amik nugget..lam peti ais yg sejuk2 tu..terus telan...capai air kosong..minom2...mate hampir tertutup sambil meraung uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....sadiskan....adeh...

SLAMAT BERSAHUR KENGKAWAN....marey makan...

Puasa

2008-09-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

...
K..skunk dah macuk syeminggu puasa...First time pose bercame bebudak kecik ni.....Time dok ngan kak Lynn..bukak pose kat umah jerr...kadang2 kat opis..kadang2 on the way balik...

Mase dulu belajar plak...bukak poce ngan ucuk...kadang2 ngan rumet..makan pon..apela sgt...pernah mkn meggie mee jerr....those old days..kan...

Al-kisah gamba diatas..hihi..time ni tgh gayot ngan mama...bebudak kecik ni ...sesibuk menangkap gamba...hoo..manyak gile makan sedapp....gile tak hingat beli...perot kecik..tapi...nafsu kuat...

Pasni..ini semua akan menjadi kenangan yang comey..ketika usia mencecah suku abad...

THE DUCK & THE DEVIL

2008-09-07T22:27:00.000-07:00

The Duck & the Devil

There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm. He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods. He practiced in the woods, but he could never hit the target. Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.

As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck. Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it. He was shocked and grieved! In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile, only to see his sister watching!

Fatima had seen it all, but she said nothing. After lunch the next day Grandma said, 'Fatima, let's wash the dishes.' But Fatima said, 'Grandma, Ahmed told me he wanted to help in the kitchen.' Then she whispered to him, 'Remember the duck?' So Ahmed did the dishes.

Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, 'I'm sorry but I need Fatima to help make supper.'
Fatima just smiled and said, 'Well, that's all right because Ahmed told me he wanted to help.' She whispered again, 'Remember the duck?' So Fatima went fishing and Ahmed stayed to help.

After several days of Ahmed doing both his chores and Fatima's, he finally couldn't stand it any longer.

He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck. Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, 'Sweetheart, I know. You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Fatima make a slave of you.'

Thought for the day and every day thereafter?

Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done... and the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.)...whatever it is...You need to know that Allah was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing. He has seen your whole life. He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.

He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.

The great thing about Allah is that when you ask for forgiveness, He not only forgives you, but He forgets. It is by Allah's grace and mercy that we are saved.

Very Interesting indeed....

2008-08-24T21:06:00.000-07:00

One of me fren emi..send this to me during office hour and guess what?terkene jugakla...gaji lom masok..haha....she said it was done by one of her fren but i dunno who...credit to him for this cute comic~~

2008-08-23T09:10:00.000-07:00

Have u ever heard about the movie "Sound Of Music".They have a reunion after 40 years...and see they still looking great!

2008-08-18T18:23:00.000-07:00

japanese bento-cute...ait?i received a lot of images from my sister...but i only chose froggies cause I love frogs~~hihi..

2008-08-07T10:09:00.000-07:00

Rahsia Diri

Kamu mahu tahu personaliti kamu dan juga teman-teman? Apa kata kamu semak tarikh lahir dan haiwan yang menjadi penaung kamu.

Januari 01-09 ~ Anjing

Januari 10-24 ~ Tikus

Januari 25-31 ~ Singa

Februari 01-05 ~ Kucing

Februari 06-14 ~ Merpati

Februari 15-21 ~ Kura-kura

Februari 22-28 ~ Harimau Bintang

Mac 01-12 ~ Monyet

Mac 13-15 ~ Singa

Mac 16-23 ~ Tikus

Mac 24-31 ~ Kucing

April 01-03 ~ Anjing

April 04-14 ~ Harimau Bintang

April 15-26 ~ Tikus

April 27-30 ~ Kura-kura

Mei 01-13 ~ Monyet

Mei 14-21 ~ Merpati

Mei 22-31 ~ Singa

Jun 01-03 ~ Tikus

Jun 04-14 ~ Kura-kura

Jun 15-20 ~ Anjing

Jun 21-24 ~ Monyet

Jun 25-30 ~ Kucing

Jul 01-09 ~ Tikus

Julai 10-15 ~ Anjing

Julai 16-26 ~ Merpati

Julai 27-31 ~ Kucing

Ogas 01-15 ~ Monyet

Ogos 16-25 ~ Tikus

Ogos 26-31 ~ Kura-kura

September 01-14 ~ Merpati

September 15-27 ~ Kucing

September 28-30 ~ Anjing

Oktober 01-15 ~ Monyet

Oktober 16-27 ~ Kura-kura

Oktober 28-31 ~ Harimau Bintang

November 01-16 ~ Singa

November 17-30 ~ Kucing

Disember 01-16 ~ Anjing

Disember 17-25 ~ Monyet

Disember 26-31 ~ Merpati

Anjing:

Kamu memang seorang yang setia dan manis orangnya. Kesetian kamu memang tidak boleh disangkal lagi. kejujuran dan keikhlasan adalah kekuatan kamu, malahan di dalam kerjaya kamu memang boleh dipercayai. Kamu adalah orang yang sederhana dan sering bersikap rendah diri.Kamu bukan orang yang akan mencari masalah dan sukakan suasana yang damai.Kualiti itulah yang menjadikan teman-teman suka berada di sisi kamu. Cita rasa kamu di dalam fesyen juga diakui baik dan kamu akan mudah terasa malu dan sedih sekiranya alamari pakaianmu tidak lengkap dengan pakaian yang mengikut peredaran fesyen. Biarpun kamu tidak mempunyai teman yang ramai tetapi teman-teman yang bersama dengan kamu memang mempunyai kualiti yang baik.

Tikus:

Kamu ini memang penuh dengan muslihat! Namun, sikap itulah yang menjadikan kamu nampak bijak dan menjadikan wajah kamu comel dan mudah menarik perhatian orang disekelilingmu. Ramai yang suka berkawan dengan kamu kerana sikap kamu yang memang mengundang keseronokan kepada orang lain. Memang kamu sering dijemput untuk memeriahkan majlis dan ramai yang menyukai kehadiran kamu, tetapi kamu begitu sensitif orangnya dan itu menjadikan orang sekelilingmu berhati-hati untuk berbicara dengan kamu. sekiranya ada yang berani menggunakan perkataan kasar, memang mereka akan mengundang kemarahan kamu di tahap maksimum! Kamu perlu bijak mengawal emosi kamu kerana teman-teman juga manusia yang tidak lepas dari melakukan kesilapan.

Singa:

Begitu kontra dengan spesies kamu, rupanya kamu ini memang pendamai orangnya. Kamu tidak suka terlibat dengan pertengkaran atau pergaduhan. Kamu begitu sukakan aktiviti luar rumah dan tidak gemar melepak tidak tentu arah tujuan. Memang dilahirkan untuk menjadi ketua dan memberikan arahan kepada orang lain dengan cara yang paling disenangi. Kamu memang suka menyayangi dan disayangi orang lain. Namun, kamu memang mudah dipermainkan oleh orang lain, jadi berhati-hati.

Kucing:

Kamu memang penyayang, disayangi namun kadang-kala begitu pemalu. Kamu sukakan keadaan yang senyap dan damai. Di dalam kehidupan, kamu suka mempelajari tentang perkara baru dan sentiasa melakukan setiap sesuatu dengan bersungguh-sungguh. Di dalam situasi normal, kamu memang nampak tenang tetapi apabila kamu dicabar, serta merta kamu mudah mengamuk! Mereka yang bernaung dibawah kucing memang bijak bergaya. Orang sekelilingmu sering menjadikan kamu sebagai idola di dalam berpakaian. Kamu bijak bersosial tetapi hanya bercakap dengan orang kamu kenali. Kamu memang begitu berhati-hati memilih teman.

Kura-kura:

Kamu semakin hampir dengan kesempurnaan dan begitu baik hati. Kebaikan kamu akan sentiasa dikenang orang sekeliling kamu. Kamu sukakan kedamaian, sekiranya teman-teman ada menyakiti hati kamu, kamu tidak akan cuba menyakitkan hati mereka pula. Kerana ini, kamu memang disayangi dan disenangi teman-teman. Kamu juga tidak suka cakap belakang dan orang sekelilingmu begitu senang dengan cara kamu melayan mereka. Kamu sentiasa akan memberi kasih sayang dan tidak pernah mengharapkan balasan. Pemurah juga adalah sikap kamu dan kamu sentiasa melihat kehidupan sebagai latihan praktikal.

Merpati:

Kamu adalah simbol sikap yang sentiasa riang. Apa saja yang kamu lakukan, kamu akan enjoy setiap detiknya. Kahadiran kamu menjadikan teman-teman serta orang sekeliling begitu riang dan senang dengan sikap kamu. Kamu adalah ketua di dalam kumpulan teman-teman dan bijak memujuk dan menghiburkan hati orang yang sedang gundah-gulana. Hipokrasi adalah sifat yang paling kamu benci dan orang yang sebegini memang kamu tolak tepi. Di dalam pekerjaan, kamu memang teratur dan sistematik. Namun, awas! Kamu mudah jatuh cinta!

Harimau Bintang:

Kamu seorang yang misteri. Kamu boleh berhadapan dengan tekanan dengan tenangnya. Kamu juga boleh menghadapi setiap senario yang menguji kesabaran tanpa perlu mengamuk untuk melepaskan geram. Kadang-kala, kamu ini kejam orangnya. Hmmm…kamu suka bergosip tetapi hanya bersama dengan teman-teman yang kamu percayai sahaja. Mereka yang bernaung di bawah harimau bintang adalah begitu teratur dan kemas orangnya. Tetapi, apa yang tidak tahan dengan sikap kamu yang mahu setiap sesuatu mengikut cara kamu. Sikap itulah yang menjadikan kamu senang hilang kawan. Namun, apabila teman-teman menghadapi masalah, kamu adalah orang pertama yang mereka cari.

Monyet:

Tidak sabar dan begitu hiperaktif! Kamu mahu segala-galanya dilakukan dengan pantas. Namun, kamu memang sederhana orangnya dan begitu suka apabila ramai yang memberikan perhatian kepada kamu. Kamu bijak berhadapan dengan masalah dan tidak mahu terlibat dengan sebarang kontroversi. Setiap langkah dan keputusan, kamu akan berfikir sebelum melakukannya. Kamu mempunyai kata hati yang kuat dan itulah yang menjadi penyelemat kepada kamu. Jangan tidak tahu, mereka yang bernaung di bawah monyet memang begitu bijak mencari wang dan begitu pandai mengatur kewangannya. Kamu memang akan berjaya di dalam perniagaan

Baca2 diatas...saye...adalah kura-kura yang lembab....betul atau tidak..??u be the judges

Conversation~~

2008-08-06T07:24:00.000-07:00

Haha I got a funny conversation with one of the new lecturer named eha.I msg her via yahoo...suke2 je la kan.The conversation goes :-

Me : yo

Ehagurl_85 : yo man

Me : gih tido la nape tak maii ari ni? amin windu ok

ehagurl_85 : ade fmly emrgency hr ni..
wahhh bkn sume org windu ker muahahahaha

Me: me not included tq

ehagurl_85 : tipuuuuu

Me : sok eha nak banje kan

ehagurl_85 : yg x tido lg knp

Me : bace buku motivational..jap kemalasan ni padahal ade keje

ehagurl_85: wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh eha belanja.... btl la..n serai bayar

Me : banje dan bayar kan hoho,esokk yeyyyy eha banje mkn nasik ayam kat
medannnnnnn .hurrayyyyyyyyyyy

ehagurl_85 : yeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy serai byr hahahaha

Me : p tido...p

ehagurl_85 : ade nota nk kene siapkn

Me : nota?ape itu nota? adakah nota itu sesuatu yg pandai berkata-kata

ehagurl_85 : amboiiiii

Me: apakah ia satu makhluk luar biasa?

ehagurl_85: yerrr..amat bsr yer

Me : atau sekadar huruf2 yang tersusun tanpa ada rasa ohhhhhhhhhhhh...nota......

ehagurl_85 : huhu

Me : marey makan notes yg pelbagai perisa

ehagurl_85 : jum!serai... stress jgk ek jd lecturer nie

Me : kejap jer pastu...penin..jap..pastu ok..penin pastu gelong melelong jap pastu...ok....kepala plak..kadang2 terhantuk ke kiri dan kekanan..kadang2 tercabut utk seketika kadang2...jerla lame2 dah biasa..oklaa

ehagurl_85 : cabut!!! jgn jd headless lecturer sudah

Me : lam mimpi la

ehagurl_85 : huhu..ok la eha nk kene siapkan notes ni.... boring!!!!!!!

Me : k...selamat menjamu nota...oh nota..ko akan ternoda oleh ehaa

ehagurl_85 : baca la yer buku motivation itu..jgn mkn buku tu sudah wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Me :leh buat puisi ..tajuk "Nota"
terima ksih kepada eha...karena memberi ilham ini
gih siapkan kerjaa

ehagurl_85 :wahahahah......begitu puitis yer
alrite..gud nite!

Very funny....for me la~~haha

2008-08-06T02:46:00.000-07:00

How Does It Feel Lyrics

Pressure

2008-08-05T10:32:00.000-07:00

...Just happen to come to a place which i dun really understand the people...,Oh..God...still.me...looking for something good........It's almost 2.am in the mornin..,I'm still blur with what i've been thru...life wasn't so easy..ait?but its would be no interesting if life doesn't include a bit of bitter..a bit a sweet and a bit of spice...combination of a perfect recipe...,I've edy had my dinner...meggie mee....ha ha..favourite dish ever ,but still at this time my stomach is growling for some more food..

2008-07-14T05:14:00.000-07:00

Baby erylin yg sgt cumel..suke berkata-kata..sebelum ni saya dpt gelaran mak teh kan?dh tuka plak...jd mak ucik die la.ni..mama ucik ya...hoho...windunya saya ngan budak kecikk nii..dh masuk 7 bulan dh..23 ari bulan ni 7 bulan...geramnyaaa..sgt byk ckp die ni...gaga gugu gigi...mmg takleh diamm

So Sweet~~

2008-07-12T18:42:00.000-07:00

An incredible love story has come out of China recently and managed to touch the world.
It is a story of a man and an older woman who ran off to live and love each other in peace for over half a century. The 70-year-old Chinese man who hand-carved over 6,000 stairs up a mountain for his 80-year-old wife has passed away in the cave which has been the couple's home for the last 50 years.

Over 50 years ago, Liu Guojiang a 19 year-old boy, fell in love with a 29 year-old widowed mother named Xu Chaoqin..

In a twist worthy of Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet, friends and relatives criticized the relationship because of the age difference and the fact that Xu already had children.
At that time, it was unacceptable and immoral for a young man to love an older woman.. To avoid the market gossip and the scorn of their communities, the couple decided to elope and lived in a cave in Jiangjin County in Southern ChongQing Municipality.

In the beginning, life was harsh as hey had nothing, no electricity or even food. They had to eat grass and roots they found in the mountain, and Liu made a kerosene lamp that they used to light up their lives.

Xu felt that she had tied Liu down and repeatedly asked him, 'Are you regretful? Liu always replied, 'As long as we are industrious, life will improve.'

In the second year of living in the mountain, Liu began and continued for over 50 years, to hand-carve the steps so that his wife could get down the mountain easily

Half a century later in 2001, a group of adventurers were exploring the forest and were surprised to find the elderly couple and the over 6,000 hand-carved steps. Liu MingSheng, one of their seven children said, 'My parents loved each other so much, they have lived in seclusion for over 50 years and never been apart a single day. He hand carved more than 6,000 steps over the years for my mother's convenience, although she doesn't go down the mountain that much.'The couple had lived in peace for over 50 years until last week. Liu, now 72 years, returned from his daily farm work and collapsed. Xu sat and prayed with her husband as he passed away in her arms. So in love with Xu, was Liu, that no one was able to release the grip he had on his wife's hand even after he had passed away.

'You promised me you'll take care of me, you'll always be with me until the day I died, now you left before me, how am I going to live without you?'

Xu spent days softly repeating this sentence and touching her husband's black coffin with tears rolling down her cheeks.

In 2006, their story became one of the top 10 love stories from China , collected by the Chinese Women Weekly. The local government has decided to preserve the love ladder and the place they lived as a museum, so this love story can live forever.

With Love everything is posibble.This story is sweet right?10 years difference...hoho...at last the younger(her husband yang meninggal dulu....huhu)

2008-07-12T01:55:00.000-07:00

o' Blur~~~Byk keje tapi.....tatau mane satu nak mula~~My ucuk wanna buy me a SLR camera for my birthday..I'm lookin fwd to have it!gile....tak berhati perut uat cemtu kan...tapi die yg nak beli....amik je la...He loves me...walaupon..saye tak cantek...Alhamdulillah....

I just Got .....!!

2008-06-20T11:12:00.001-07:00

The thing is in life...when someone who is sitting quietly beside the road and suddenly got kick by some stooopid crazy drunken man who thinks that the person sitting there is blocking his way .Who is stooopid?...Who ask him to get drunk and act crazy?.

Thinking of people who always like to judge on people,talk about people...calling names... on some people life ....he/she must love to be called as an asshole...cause god doesn't make us here just to give a shitty talk about others...just act normal(everybody is not perfect unless u r a GOD..goddamitt!)... do good...dun disturb others..keep on living a great life cause life should be filled with wonderfull things...like wise saying...If you can't say something nice..dun say anything at all..jerk!...please read the bible..(even though I am not that religious...hahaha)

F**k those who think they are way too smart..F**k those who love to involved in some people life!F**k those who dun realize that he/she is making fool out of him/herself!F**K...if you read this and think I am crazy?Get the f**k out of here.And if you think I'm talking about you...wowo..u better check yourself twice..cause this is so general...

2008-06-16T21:26:00.000-07:00

Last nite I cried..really bad...until my eyes goes blurred......hihi...dun mention why....i love them....but some of them does not understand why I am quitely strict with things...It is for their own good. I still continue developing myself..Haha..now i understand why all person with my position dun really bother.

I'll still follow my plan when i got my drivin license...my ucuk wanna buy me a car(just plan),he is really a good person..and i am very glad to have him beside me...even though I am a bad person...wuv u..ucukk..:P..

Happy Birthday~~

2008-06-06T18:19:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to me~~~.....Thanks for all my frens who had wishes me all the best for my future ahead..hihi.....

Hey..

2008-05-20T02:42:00.000-07:00

I'm OK...yeah2..this week one of me best friend is getting married. It is in Johor..gile jauh bapak kan...For the sake of good friend...willing also to go...rumet dulu..gile rapat gakla kan...

I'm still in the office. The crisis with my colleague?well he is change ....hope he is not pretending la..But now I dun care lah as long as he can teach well and bagus dalam kerjanya kan..His skill wasn't bad afterall,almaklumla MMU..kwang kwang..bangga..bangga..jap..hohoho...

Balik ni..nak uat apa yah?hoho..apa lagi..belajar bende baru lah...do my illustration...internet tadek..buring gilerr...

PTPTN..hoho...wat is dat?UTANGGG!!!sadis sungguh..sudah naik itu bungga..la..la..la...Now I'm focusing on the student marks,preparation for final student presentation..and manyak lagi....

Dats it...I'm out of here...

Sigh~~~

2008-04-21T01:49:00.000-07:00

I'm dying here....

A Better Life?

2008-03-20T02:07:00.000-07:00

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It
is
the ultimate anti-depressant.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Buy a lock if you
have
to.

3. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement,
'My purpose is to __________ today.'

4. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that
is manufactured in plants.

5. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan
salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.

6. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

7. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues
of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead
invest your energy in the positive present moment.

8. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a
college kid with a maxed out charge card.

9. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

10. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

11. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

12. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to dis about.

15. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

16. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years,
will this matter?'

17. Forgive everyone for everything.

18. What other people think of you is none of your business.

19. GOD heals almost everything.

20. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

21. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends
will. Stay in touch.

22. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

23. Each night before you go to bed complete the following
statements: I am thankful for _______. Today I accomplished ______.

24. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.

I like this 25 tips to live a better life...I got this from my sister...She fwd it to me..and yeah it is sure totally nothing but the truth.Well...I'm still worried about my job and everything ,I still stick to my plan...just continue working here.I love my job as a lecturer..doing good to the college kid. Some of them might hate me i guess but its ok. They'll understand later on ait?. A lot of things happen. I'm a loner now..lan is not around. I need to get my driving license as soon as possible. It is really difficult to travel with my laptop bag all the way to work. Hehe..but neway...life is still great..Hope everything turns out good. Oh yeah~~i got 2 new comer in my center..Ali and syed. They are really nice. I'm a bit close with Ali cause we had the same thought although sometimes we do argue on things.And..maybe we are from the same ground..MMU!hip hip hurrayy!Ali is a kinda crazy type..cute..haha..remind me of my cousin brother Arief. Well syed on the other hand was cool..serious type and soooo.....yeah2 you know what i mean ait?Both of them were nice. At least ,i got a friend in that particular center. And ah....forgot to mention..ros..she is cute...nice..undergoing her practical training ....poor little gurl!..she won't forget me~~me always make her going crazy ~~~K dats it!stop now!pray for me best!

2008-02-28T22:36:00.000-08:00

I'm still werking as a lecturer in MIIM,well there is plenty of things to consider...gee..miss all me fwenz...heyy tell u wat?Good news!Lan found a job!yeyyy!bad news..the job is in singapore!woooooooooooooooo~~but of course he'll earning big money looo..kan..

2008-02-07T01:14:00.000-08:00

2007-12-27T00:29:00.000-08:00

2007-12-25T22:04:00.000-08:00

dah sebulan dah baby eril

2007-12-17T01:21:00.000-08:00

Ucuk kat Uk skang,next month die balik..so this is for him~~..lame dah nak upload tapi tak ter upload.....lame gak tak uat vector..bile dah stable..lehla sambung semula..byk mende agi ni...nak blaja..:P..

2007-12-13T23:14:00.000-08:00

Ini ade lah anak sedarenku..lahir pade 23/November/2007....comey tk die ni?hehehe..first granddaughter of me parent...name die baby Erilyn Qazween...berat time lahir 2.6KG....gamba ni baru 24 hour kat dunia...She will call me Mak teh la...meshti manjee dak kechik ni...Wuv u baby erill...

2007-12-13T23:01:00.000-08:00

lame tk upload gamba huhu..gamba grad kehkeh...4 bulan lepas...kehkeh...

Merepek...

2007-10-26T19:27:00.000-07:00

Hari ini merupakan hari yang paling bahagia dalam hidupku..melihat suamiku yang jarang ada diruman...bla bla bla.........burung ape?...burung murai....burung ape?...murai nakk..."hahahahaha",ku gelak besar selepas melihat advert advert yang paling berkesan dan menjadi bualan ramai.Hakikatnya advert itu memberi makna yang mendalam dan kesan pada aku yang hanya manusia biasa.Selepas melalui hari-hari sebagai seorang hamba kepada pelajar-pelajar yang ku kira seperti adik-adikku sendiri,bermulalah kisah hidupku yang sangat membosankan.Ada kiranya hidupku sebelum ini pun amat membosankan.Selepas melihat advert burung murai itu,tekakku terasa dahaga lalu ku terus bangun mencapai cawan untuk mengisi air dari tangki tapisan . Beberapa saat menonton,buntutku terasa panas.Panasnyaa la...busan?busannyaaa la.....binggung?binggunnya la....Ku menukar citarasa ke arah mengadap komputer ribaku."Haih buat 3D la plak".Pengsan jap.Hahahha pengsanla plak.Beralih topik.Adanya kawan-kawan di tempat kerja...semua2 nya bagus2 belaka..Adanya rakan sekerja semuanya cantek-cantek belaka....aku?haha..aku sama saja....lainnya aku hari ni adalah cuba untuk menjadi mereka-mereka yang cantik2 pada pandangan mataku.Setiap hari aku melihat orang..orangan disekelilingku,cuba menjadi cantek.Yang cantek mengatakan diri tidak cantek..yang huduh seperti ku cuba untuk membuktikan aku boleh menjadi cantek.Bercakap tentang cantek.Apa itu Cantek?ya..cantik...mmg cantik sekali.perkataan itu mmg didambakan oleh setiap orang khususnya pada wanita.Comel?comel pon apa kurangnya...Mmg setiap orang kalau ditanya cantek..mereka tahu menilai apa itu cantik.Yah setiap kali bila disebut cantek...ada yang berkata cantek bukan saja khusus pada rupa tetapi hati.Ya...hati..boleh pula ya menilai.Tetapi tau kah lebih dari separuh orang-orang yang ku jumpa rata-rata hanya mulut saja yang berkata cantik dinilai dari hati,hakikatnya manusia dan mereka2 itu..mmg hanya memandang luaran.Mengapa?biarkanlah..malas nak pk.Pk..dan sentiasa berpk...ahh...busanlah jadi huduh nak cantek...ahh...bila sudah cantek..ah busanlah jadi cantek..nak low profile...manusia mmg tidak akan berpuas hati..hahaha..,Kadang2 aku berfikir,pujian dari orang2 sekeliling itu suatu kebenaran atau...??aahh...setelah sekian lama aku diperli-perli...diejek-ejek itam..dibeza-beza....pujian langsong tidak mendatangkan kesan...yang pasti aku tetap aku...dan adanya aku sekarang ..hanya akan berangan untuk menjadi seorang yang comel,cantek dari segi apa saja....berangan...Berangan..ada saja orang yang melihat aku cantek...dari segi segalanya...melihat aku menarik....adanya sekarang orang yang aku cintai juga tidak pernah mengatakan dia jatuh hati kerana rupa...tak cantek kah aku?ahh..buat apa mahu cantek....biarkan..hidup pon tak lama...lama-lama..dimakan ulat juga...